Cross over

Now I'm a bit curious...
A girl is trying to seduce me.

Well, i thought she was just fooling around coz we play futsie together regularly. It seemed harmless in the beginning and i took it as a joke. Yer la, I was from all-girl school so those semi-seducing jokes are normal among the girls, and I joked along.
It were those little jokes on the futsie court to keep the game alive.
Just play along...
Then from emails on futsie team weekly updates, came along private mails.
Ok, that's fine.
Then she txted me.
That's ok too...
From casual txts, to seducing ones...
Still jokes to me...
But when one day she called me and said that though she has a bf, she could be my gf if i want to coz she can't resist me... and that everybody has their own little black book, it woke me up.

Ok, do i look like a lesbo now? Or somebody who has the tendacy to cross-over?
Do i?

But i tell u boys, she's a hell of a bomb, a silent bomb - like Siti Nurhaliza (hahhaa... still can't believe she ended up with a tarzan - with mostache!) Coz she's not the wild type, but a fine lady... Tu yg pelik tu.. Dat's y i never took her seriously.
Kalau betul la dia memang seriously seducing me, and i respond to her... Boy, what a waste! What a waste!!

LOVE

Simple Definitions of love:

+ A strong positive emotion of regard and affection.
+ Any object of warm affection or devotion.
+ Having a great affection or liking for.
+ A deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction.
+ To be enamored with.

Love...
It is something that you give away, without expecting any in return.

Yeay! Project keparatku sudah bereh.
So aku sudah tidak perlu sombong lagi.
:)
I need a date to go watch PGL the Musical next week.
Any candidate?

Could you please shut up already?

Ok now... aku macam bengang and nak express kebenganganan aku kat sini tapi ended up aku tatau nak tulis ape coz macam byk sgt nak tulis tapi aku takde time. I'm freaking busy at the mo.
Yes, yes i know everybody claims that they are busy but when I say I'm freaking busy..
I MEAN IT!

Aku malas dan tak kuasa nak cerita daily schedule aku.
These days, if you buzz me and when i say that I''ll call you back. Please don't wait by the phone. Of course, a month later i still remember that I said that, but still... I won't call you back. If you call me or drop me a line in email/sms or watever je pon la... and say "Oii sombong eh kau skang", I'll definitely ctrl+del coz really... i don't have time. Atau kau nak aku concentrate kat kau dan dunia kau.. sori tak dapat beb! Gua ada dekat 50 accounts nak kena jaga dengan berpuluh work order masuk tiap hari, ko nak aku layan masalah ko pehal? Ni gua dah 15 jam tak makan solid food bukan pasal diet tapi mmg tak sempat nak makan... Pastu nak layan stupid calls and stupid mails? Baik aku gi makan, lg bagus!
Dengan upline downline yang letak 1001 responsibilities kat bahu aku... Weii berat aku tak sampai 45kg pon la.. tah-tah 40kg dah skang! Pressure siot!Tolongggg.. somebody please give me some prozacs...
And the last thing aku nak dengar skang ialah org memekak kat telinga aku cakap aku tak buat keje atau mempersoalkan keje aku...
Aku macam nak justify diri aku and fire balik manusia-manusia bangang dan self-centered tu tapi pikir2 balik baik aku diam. Ingat ko sorang je ke yg ada project nak kena siap? or target nak kena achieve? Abis tu korang nak belah aku brape bhgn? Aku ni, nak disalai ke buat sate pon tak cukup.
Baik aku ignore sume org dan buat keje aku.
Ko tak puas ati, lantak ko la...
Seriyes la.. time utk diri aku pon aku takde, jgn la bengang if aku takde time utk org lain.

Olny srmat poelpe can.

I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

Blackest of heart

What is that love which is based on greed?
When there is greed, the love is false.

Greed, passion, hatred, lust.
When these emotions dominate the soul, what have you got left with you?
Where is your heart?
What is love to you?
Where is the human sense in you?

A heart becomes a piece of crap.

Love is a fun thing to play with.

Human sense is just... nonsense.

Selfish heart... causes blindness and suffering.
Cruel heart... leads to destruction.

So I walked out, if I can just walk all over, of the blackest of heart I’ve ever succumb to.

And I learnt what it takes to be a heartless human, and meaning of human with a heart.

Dasar betina

Pagi tadi aku terkantoikan Shiro tgh main - doggie style.
In the kitchen of my bro's hse.
Jantan mane tah die bawak balik umah.
Bengang btol aku.
Repot ngan abang aku kang... baru dia tau!

Crash Boom Bang

Woke up today all geared up to hit the high road.

Two hours later -
BAMMMMMM!!!!




I'm crushed.

Ouchh!!




Sucks, man.

9 6

Happy 9 6 - to mom & dad for your birthday.
And me too... for whatever reason that matters.


400 days
of
agony.
pain.
hope.
bitterness.
solitude.
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Should I stop counting now?

Piece of shit

As I told him:
"KA called me this morning all cried out... His husband thought that now she's not working, she is useless. And because of that, her husband told her that he doesn't want to be with her anymore coz for the past 6 years they've known each other, she doesn't bring any value added to him. She knows that her husband likes women of fortune. She told me that she asked her husband to give her just a bit more time to prove that she can be more than that. She wants to do this business seriously so that she could give her husband whatever he wants. Be the woman he desires."

He said:
"Bagusnya KA tu.. U know, that's how a wife should be. Lucky guy, her husband."

And I said:
"Ey bukan laki ke yang patut bagi nafkah? And the worse part is, I just found out that he actually has a second wife who he married sometime last year... only 3 years after his marriage to KA. And to think that KA sabar je lagi ngan dia and remain faithful as ever... AND NOW...he also has a girlfriend! "

His response:
"Seriously, how did he do that? Respect ahh.. power gile.. Dah la tak handsome.. Ayat apa dia guna?"





Man, are you for real?
You scared the shit outta me.
Seems like we are at a different page.

Welcome frens

Previously on my alternative site:

Hey people...
If i give you the access to this site, this literally means that lucky you... You are not the one I'm trying to diss and have NIL connection with me or my life!
Tapi kalo korang kena diss ngan aku pon, korang sure tadak hal nyer kan? :-P



OK, i'm done with my emo. Time to move on and get the hell outta it.
I'm back people...
*muuuuaaahhhhsss!*

I saw the end, even before it begun

"Sorry that i disappoint u and let u down. I'm guilty of every failure and pressure felt. Apologize for all the mess I've made."

"Guilt feeling and apologize are not what I seek. Takpe, maybe u tak paham i and i tak paham u... Lepas ni u buat la apa yang u rasa nak buat."

"Never mind if u think it's not worthy. I tau I memang sampah. I take it. Ok, lepas ni takyah nak susah-susah ngan i. Takyah amik tau pon takpe. We go separate ways ok?"

*ape bende tah merapu*

"Put all the blame on me... Takpe, i terima. Thanks for everything. Gudnite."

"U yang nak go separate ways... apsal i yang put all the blame on u?"

"Ok i yang nak."

Realize that the word "yang" EMPHASIZE that oneself is responsibe of any behaviour that comes after (e.g if connected to "nak" as demonstrated as the above).

Again,
"U yang nak go separate ways... apsal i yang put all the blame on u?" <-- can you see the connection between these two lines?

Buzz off

I'm moving on to a new site.
Coz I need to keep my thoughts away from some people.
Buzz me on YM or email me if you want to continue reading my rubbish.

Whatever, bitch!

Hari ni aku rasa cam nak cakap pegi mampos kat sume orang.
Pegi mampos kat sume orang who make any attemp to communicate with me today - in any form of communication at all - talk, or buat lawak bangang, or say hi, or smile, or even give me a glimpse.

I now realize that I could become a horrendous popping red-eyed monster if ANYONE fuck my in the face at wee hour in the morning. Especially when I'm fucking tired. Especially when my life is already at its own discontent. Especially when it's Monday and I'm fucking hate Mondays. So please don't disrupt my Monday blues.
Thanks.

25 DEAL we made.

Menunggumu
Chrisye feat. Peterpan

Di dalam sebuah cinta
Terdapat bahasa
Yang mengalun indah
Mengisi jiwa
Merindukan kisah
Kita berdua
Yang tak pernah bisa
Akan terlupa

Bila rindu ini masih milikmu
Kuhadirkan sebuah tanya untukmu
Harus berapa lama aku menunggumu
Aku menunggumu

Di dalam masa indah
Saat bersamamu
Yang tak pernah bisa
Akan terlupa
Pandangan matanya
Menghancurkan jiwa
Dengan segenap cinta
Aku bertanya

Bila rindu ini masih milikmu
Kuhadirkan sebuah tanya untukmu
Harus berapa lama aku menunggumu
Aku menunggumu

Dalam hati ku menunggu
Dalam hati ku menunggu

Aku...
Dalam lelah ku menunggu
Dalam letih ku menunggu
Aku...
Masih menunggu

Bila rindu ini masih milikmu
Kuhadirkan sebuah...

Harus berapa lama, harus berapa lama
Aku menunggumu, aku menunggumu
Aku menunggu...aku menunggumu


I don't know how much longer can i wait. I don't know if i have that much patience. I don't have forever to spare.
But here I am, standing still... watching you pass me by. And praying that our path will collide, again.

Kesian kete pink aku

Kete kena pecah last week. Sedey gile...
I curse it on the new sony xplode CD changer which i just bought 2 weeks ago.
Pulak tu nak jadik cerita, I accidently left my purse with a whole lot of cash in the bag.
And i curse it on my carelessness for leaving my bag in the car.
But i can't really curse on anything.
I can't really complaint.
Bukan rezeki, nak buat camne. Redha je la...

Post-holiday depression

I'm frigging bored of my job
And i just hate working
Save me, save me now
Or just kill me

Bonus tahun ni sikit gile... ntah pehape je CEO baru!

This is my 100th post

I need a new haircut for my holiday, and new mood to forget that I'm now quarter a century :(
Tried out few hairstyles - with the matching make ups (or not so matching ones!)
Here are the outcomes...

Gambar mintak keje kehhehhe

Presenting,

not-so-me me

My current hair, with more volume

I think I'm gonna be sick!

Bad hair day?

Teri Hatcher? Desperate Housewifemate!

Dumb blonde...

...with accessories

So folks, any suggestion?

Try it out here!

Turning 25 sure gets me horny at times hahahha

A friendly reminder - 17 days to my birthday, folks!
For the first time since 14, I'm not binded with fancy birthday dinner for two nor will i get love struck buzzday cards and bouquets. I might miss the wet wet (wueekkss!) birthday kisses but warm birthday hugs (ahhhh!!) could do me justice.

I know it's the thought that counts but my dear friends, it would be more delighting if you put that thought into thinking of what kind of present you want to give me.. keh kehhh... So stop going for movies, or playing futsal, or eating out, or messing around with dat plastic (or gold) card, start saving and kempising that bunch stomach of yours and tightening it wit ur waist nipper or bengkung (if you must) and spend your bling bling to pamper me as you wish.
For my darling friends with the March-RM-for-jigz sense, love you all *muaaahhsss* Manakala kepada yang lokek, kemut dan kemek, i love you less :-P


Okie dokie.. Just a point to ponder,

One thing women can do that men can't
Multiple orgasm.

What is one thing men can do women can't?
Siapa berani, sila jawab

15 WAYS TO NEGATE THE RECENT FUEL PRICE INCREASE

Browse thru my inbox and saw this email sent by a friend.

Improve your vehicle's fuel consumption - by as much as 40% - by changing the way you currently drive. There is a catch, though.

1. Pump More Here & Pump Less There.
   Don't wait until your car senget one side before inflating your tyres. Low tyre pressure forces your engine to work and drink harder. Driving on underinflated tyres also reduces the life of the tyres. A lose-lose situation.
2. Dig Your Nose

Digging your nose is more economical than gunning your engine while waiting at traffic lights. Jack rabbit starts cost you even more. Never floor the pedal unless there's an express bus looming in your rearview mirror. Learn how to accelerate (and brake) smoothly for better fuel efficiency.
3. Pay It Again Sam
   You may be using an alternative toll-free road as a sign of protest or as a means of saving money. If the the old route is perpetually congested and longer, you may end up burning more fuel than the toll saved. Sad but often true.
4. Go Look Stop
   Are you one of those who frequently get stuck behind a stalled vehicle, crash into road humps or potholes? If you look further than 3 meters while driving, you can better anticip ate obstacles and avoid fuel guzzling start-stop situations. Good reason not to tailgate too.
5. Make Up Your Mind
   I don't know if it's kiasuness or indecisiveness that makes people drive with the other foot riding the brake pedal. A slight touch might not be noticeable to you but it strains the engine, wears out your brakes prematurely and confuses the poor driver behind. Make sure your handbrake is down all the way too.
6. Get Rid Of Freeloaders
   The less passengers the less weight. The less load the better the fuel economy. If you want to car pool, pool the cost. Clear your boot by removing unutilised items like golf sets, prams, barbecue sets, scuba gear, etc.
7. Bear With Crow Shit
   Park your car under the shade wherever possible. The hotter your car interior becomes, the harder the air-conditioning needs to work later, the more fuel the engine consumes as a result. The hot sun also increases fuel loss through evaporation.
8. Stay Safe & Save
   Fuel consumption jumps dramatically after a certain speed. Keeping to the speed limit saves you more than traffic fines. Driving at 120 kph, rather than 100 kph, may increase fuel consumption by another 25 percent. The dangers of speeding far outweigh the travel time saved.
9. Get A Life
   Stop pissing off your neighbours in the mornings and do yourself a favour. Most modern cars have no chokes or carburetors, so there's no need for long, noisy engine warm- ups. Hard revving a cold engine kills it faster than driving it.
10. Let The Bugger Go
    There's no need to catch up with an offending driver just to show a finger or fist. You end up either paying more for fuel or a hefty hospital bill.
11. Learn From Your Mistakes
    If your wife or girlfriend says she needs to pop into a warehouse sale for a quick look-see, find a parking spot and turn off the engine. Long idling wastes fuel and pollutes the environment.

12. Don't Be A Drag Queen
    Remove that empty showoff roof rack or that ugly ill-designed Ah Beng spoiler as it causes unnecessary drag. Smoking with your windows down at cruising speed also increases drag. Newer cars (except the Juara) are aerodynamically designed for fuel efficiency. Stop adding unnecessary external accessories such as jutting elbows.
13. Meter The Meter
    Keep track of your car's fuel consumption by monitoring the odometer or tripmeter. A sudden drop may mean mechanical problems. Timely oil change and other maintenance can save you significant amount of fuel.
14. Try A Different Nasi Lemak
    All petrol are the same except for the additives and advertising. Contrary to what most Malaysians believe, you can mix your fuel. There's really no need to waste fuel by driving out of the way just to fill up your favourite brand and redemption card.

15. Get A New Boss
    Use online banking or find a better employer. Stop driving to an ATM every hour just to check whether your salary is in.