Who am I in your life?

Life is the process of finding love,
every person will need to find four people in their life.
First person is yourself,
second person is the one you love most,
third person is the one who love you most,
and the fourth, is the one you spend the rest of your life with.

In life, firstly you will meet the one you love most,
and learn how love feels;
Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who love you most;
When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most,
Then you will find the person who is suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life,
these three people are usually not the same person.
The one you love most, doesn't love you;
The one who love you most, is never the one you love most;
And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most,
he is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.

So, which person are you in other people's life?
Which person have you found so far?
In the world so big, which person have you found?
And who has found you?

No person will purposely have a change of heart.
At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you;
But when he doesn't love you anymore, he really don't love you anymore;
When he loves you, he can't pretend that he doesn't;
Same goes, when he loves you no more, there's no way he can pretend he loves you.
Love is not a possession.
If you still love him, you should wish him happiness,
and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it.
If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don't love him,
And if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?

*this is an excerpt from my older post
...bcoz i need to be doped again*

Senses

If you notice, I just added some spices on my blog...
The look of this blog has never changed since the first time. I was not really into commercializing this rubbish site of mine but since there is a new excitement or shall i say demam among my colleagues on the AdSense thingy ( i will write about my colleagues seasonal demams... those guys just never fail me... lurvvee them all *wink*), i played along with them and added it in.

So u guysss, plis pliss plisss click on those buttons down there (i mean on my blog... not in those pants, u pervert!!) and help me add some coins in my pocket. Most of all, help me win this game... coz i definitely can't beat them on table tennis :(

Now go go go click away guysss....
Nanti kite blanjer cendol keh! (",)

Broken wings...

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away

I've been haunted by the past.
Past that I thought didn't matter much to me... but it does.
I've been having sleepless nights, I broke down...
It had me days and nights, and played with my dreams...
It got me real bad - I went blank and almost fainted yesterday.

I can't explain what went inside my head.
I was told to move on, but a part of me still hold back.
I was told to let it out, and let go...
But the memories still keep coming back to me.

I wish things are as simple as it may seem.
But it's not...
I could just let it all go... I just can't.
I don't even know if I ever will...

stupid, indeed!

Despite of a great combination of pretty faces and remarkable backgrounds, some people can be so sengal and lembab... or shall i say LEMAU?!!
How did they get their certificates, anyway??

I suggest that tuition centers should be abolished, and acceptance to higher educational institutions should be merited based on pure brain, without supplements of private lessons!
Coz bile dah accepted and rasa macam sangat bijak pandai, suddenly brain diorang jadik cripple and soon after graduation, their brain utilization count revert to zero.

Damn, it gets me frustrated...
Seriously la... Where were you when God was dishing out brains?

Meeting/Mating

If you ever wonder how sexual harrasment in the office starts, the email below might turn you on, oppsss sorry, turn your idea on...

From: [encrypted]
Sent: Friday, December 15, 2006 10:56 AM
To: [encrypted]
Subject: LOL

I’m horny and I have practical experience in karma sutra… we can experience this at:

Time: 11pm till late (I’ll drive u back home)
Date: 16th December 2006 / 17 december 2006
Venue: meeting room 19th south wing

AGENDA :

KAMA SUTRA 102TH MOVE

IMPORTANT NOTICE:

Pls treat this email as P&C. Not to be shown to the customers.
TQ.


And the best part is, sender is a MALE, so is the receiver.

Gosh, this is the best lawak of the day...
Sangat comel la officematesku... Always lighten up my days...

To whom it may concern,
Sorry bro, I had to share... But worry not... I won't show it to the customers, i promise. But i did not promise that I won't leak it here :-D

Do You Have a Honda Tetris?

HAZARD WARNING!

For the eyes of jAZZ/FiT lovers only :P

How bout that?

Perhaps, some information to help you with the pictures:

1. BMW started it with this advertisement

2. AUDI answered.

3. SUBARU needed to say something

4. BENTLEY Chairman wanted the last word!

I'm sorry

"I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
And it's so out of line to try to turn back time"

Addiction

Sometimes kan, in order for me to truly appreciate something, i need to feel the loss of it.
so that i can feel the pain of losing it
so that i can understand how much it means to me.
Now i'm addicted to pain.
I need it to feel alive.

OK, dat's it.

I QUIT!!

I've been suffering from a severe back pain for more than a week. At first i thought it was just muscle cramp as i did not warm up before my futsal game last Tuesday. The very next day stomach ache kicking in. "Maybe I'm having period cramp," i thought. Day after day, it turned from bad to worse. The sharp, stabbing pain didn't permit me to do even a slight movement.. I found it really painful to walk, sit, or even talk. Friday, i was down with fever. It couldn't be period pain coz i've never experienced any serious monthly cramp before, at least not this bad. Only on Monday when he asked me, "U ada jatuh ke?" Only then i realized that that i once, fell on my butt while playing futsal last Tuesday.

So i went to a clinic last Tuesday.
What did the doctor say?
Could it be just a mere period pain?
Could it be a severe back pain?
Or a slipped disk?

I was asked to take a urine test.
And waddaya know?
I have kidney infection

:( Saya sangat sedey...

Therefore, my new health resolution :

1. Kurangkan minum teh tarik dan sekaligus mengurangkan revenue mamak
2. Minum air putih banyak banyak banyak
3. Tanak tahan-tahan kencing lagi

Hukkkssss....

Cross over

Now I'm a bit curious...
A girl is trying to seduce me.

Well, i thought she was just fooling around coz we play futsie together regularly. It seemed harmless in the beginning and i took it as a joke. Yer la, I was from all-girl school so those semi-seducing jokes are normal among the girls, and I joked along.
It were those little jokes on the futsie court to keep the game alive.
Just play along...
Then from emails on futsie team weekly updates, came along private mails.
Ok, that's fine.
Then she txted me.
That's ok too...
From casual txts, to seducing ones...
Still jokes to me...
But when one day she called me and said that though she has a bf, she could be my gf if i want to coz she can't resist me... and that everybody has their own little black book, it woke me up.

Ok, do i look like a lesbo now? Or somebody who has the tendacy to cross-over?
Do i?

But i tell u boys, she's a hell of a bomb, a silent bomb - like Siti Nurhaliza (hahhaa... still can't believe she ended up with a tarzan - with mostache!) Coz she's not the wild type, but a fine lady... Tu yg pelik tu.. Dat's y i never took her seriously.
Kalau betul la dia memang seriously seducing me, and i respond to her... Boy, what a waste! What a waste!!

LOVE

Simple Definitions of love:

+ A strong positive emotion of regard and affection.
+ Any object of warm affection or devotion.
+ Having a great affection or liking for.
+ A deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction.
+ To be enamored with.

Love...
It is something that you give away, without expecting any in return.

Yeay! Project keparatku sudah bereh.
So aku sudah tidak perlu sombong lagi.
:)
I need a date to go watch PGL the Musical next week.
Any candidate?

Could you please shut up already?

Ok now... aku macam bengang and nak express kebenganganan aku kat sini tapi ended up aku tatau nak tulis ape coz macam byk sgt nak tulis tapi aku takde time. I'm freaking busy at the mo.
Yes, yes i know everybody claims that they are busy but when I say I'm freaking busy..
I MEAN IT!

Aku malas dan tak kuasa nak cerita daily schedule aku.
These days, if you buzz me and when i say that I''ll call you back. Please don't wait by the phone. Of course, a month later i still remember that I said that, but still... I won't call you back. If you call me or drop me a line in email/sms or watever je pon la... and say "Oii sombong eh kau skang", I'll definitely ctrl+del coz really... i don't have time. Atau kau nak aku concentrate kat kau dan dunia kau.. sori tak dapat beb! Gua ada dekat 50 accounts nak kena jaga dengan berpuluh work order masuk tiap hari, ko nak aku layan masalah ko pehal? Ni gua dah 15 jam tak makan solid food bukan pasal diet tapi mmg tak sempat nak makan... Pastu nak layan stupid calls and stupid mails? Baik aku gi makan, lg bagus!
Dengan upline downline yang letak 1001 responsibilities kat bahu aku... Weii berat aku tak sampai 45kg pon la.. tah-tah 40kg dah skang! Pressure siot!Tolongggg.. somebody please give me some prozacs...
And the last thing aku nak dengar skang ialah org memekak kat telinga aku cakap aku tak buat keje atau mempersoalkan keje aku...
Aku macam nak justify diri aku and fire balik manusia-manusia bangang dan self-centered tu tapi pikir2 balik baik aku diam. Ingat ko sorang je ke yg ada project nak kena siap? or target nak kena achieve? Abis tu korang nak belah aku brape bhgn? Aku ni, nak disalai ke buat sate pon tak cukup.
Baik aku ignore sume org dan buat keje aku.
Ko tak puas ati, lantak ko la...
Seriyes la.. time utk diri aku pon aku takde, jgn la bengang if aku takde time utk org lain.

Olny srmat poelpe can.

I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

Blackest of heart

What is that love which is based on greed?
When there is greed, the love is false.

Greed, passion, hatred, lust.
When these emotions dominate the soul, what have you got left with you?
Where is your heart?
What is love to you?
Where is the human sense in you?

A heart becomes a piece of crap.

Love is a fun thing to play with.

Human sense is just... nonsense.

Selfish heart... causes blindness and suffering.
Cruel heart... leads to destruction.

So I walked out, if I can just walk all over, of the blackest of heart I’ve ever succumb to.

And I learnt what it takes to be a heartless human, and meaning of human with a heart.

Dasar betina

Pagi tadi aku terkantoikan Shiro tgh main - doggie style.
In the kitchen of my bro's hse.
Jantan mane tah die bawak balik umah.
Bengang btol aku.
Repot ngan abang aku kang... baru dia tau!

Crash Boom Bang

Woke up today all geared up to hit the high road.

Two hours later -
BAMMMMMM!!!!




I'm crushed.

Ouchh!!




Sucks, man.