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Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Rain

Alone, sitting, watching the rain fall,
I give my self away
to the water,
to the flames of the drops,
forever.
The darkness creeps in,
my reality is shattered
and I fall,
I fall into the dark,
into the deep,
into an illusion.
My fate has changed,
my eyes can no longer see,
yet, I give myself away.
The rain hits me,
yet, it slices through my body,
for you see, I am no longer there.
I am falling into the dark,
my illision now becoming my reality,
my eyes see, yet my body doesn't feel,
and the rain keeps falling....

-Kimberly Tasha Thompson

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Re: SWIII Mission

Joj darling, as per requested.. aku post wishlist aku
Aku baru gi beli cap star wars ngan Yoda figure kat Burger King tadi kihkihkihhh..

My must have : T-shirts (size cute2 eh)
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My wishlist:

1- Lightsaber (the metal one with neon light, not the plastic one)
2- Illustration book
3- Action figure of Anakin/Yoda/Amidala/Mace Windu/Clone Trooper
4- Any merchandise that are cheap and kewl. i.e:

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Anything la... From the smallest thing to the biggest so i really dont mind u buy me just about anything. Be it sticker (car sticker would be kewl hikss), organizer, keychain, mug, jar, action figures, life-size standing poster, bunting, toys sume aku nakkkkkkkk!!
I dont mind if u got them free for buying burgers or cereals.. Aku nak joj.... aku nakkk sumeee
*bodo gile kat kl nih takde merchandise langsung! Hasbro Inc pon tak wat promo. I guess i have to go hunting in singapore this weekend*
Pastu kan, kalau kau nak beli aku belated bday present, aku propose Monopoly Star Wars Collectors Edition keh darling. Plizz eh.. aku jeles ngan opismate aku, die ade satu.

Aku tak kira la kalau perasaan aku jadik tamak haloba tapi jasamu akan ku kenang hingga ke hujung dunia hiksss...
Luv u loads babe.
Miss ya sooo much *muaaahhhsss*

p/s: tak siap upload gambar lg ni esok aku sambung coz nak balik.. byers!

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Dear Joj...

Just now, I buzzed my sweet darling so-called twin sister Jojie, who is now in London.
BUZZ!!!
louvre: yo
jigz: pe cer?
louvre: same ol same ol
louvre: ape cer
jigz: weiiii
jigz: belikan aku star wars merchandise plizzzzzzzzzzzzz
louvre: ahhahahahahha
louvre: aku dah agak dah
louvre: kalau msg aku ni
louvre: mesti ade ape2 la tu
jigz: aku kensel la lauren kau tu
jigz: alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
jigz: hahahha siot je
louvre: lauren apa?
jigz: laura ashley
jigz: isn't it where u work?
jigz: i forgot already
louvre: bagus la ojie
louvre: kau telah mengconvincekan aku
louvre: kenape aku patut beli star wars kau tu
louvre: sbb kau lupa mana aku keje
louvre: bagus bagus
jigz: :D
jigz: shit
jigz: isn't it laura ashley?
jigz: isn't it ...?
louvre: ok la ojie
louvre: gtg now
louvre: email aku (kalau ingat lagi aku nye email add)
louvre: dan kasi 10 alasan nape aku patut beli star wars kau
jigz: :))
jigz: demmmm
jigz: my bad :(

Shit, apa 10 alasan aku ni?
Tapi betul la die keje Laura Ashley!

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Another wasted day

People were over exageratting today's date n time with those 05:05am/pm on 05/05/05. "It happens only once in ur lifetime and and bla bla bla". And the funniest thing is that people were like wishing each other for the "special" moment. Some even thought of doing something crazy or memorable today.
Yeah, then comes 06:06 on 06/06/06, then 07:07 on 07/07/07 then 08:08 on 08/08/08.
And also there are 20/05/2005 (alot of wedding on this date) and 20/06/2006 and 20/07/2005 and the list goes on.
But the thing is that, every second or even milisecond of ur life is unique.
Irregardless of the number, it is still precious for every other human being... The number might be pretty kewl but if u let the time goes by with emptiness pon tak guna gaks.

Saying so, my life is wasted today! Bangun lambat, gi keje lambat, long breakfast then comes lunch, read blogs and watever stupid stuff i can think of doing.
Going back... nak main Star Wars Monopoly. Sorang sorang pon jadik la.. Yeayyy~!! (Freak! - NOT!)

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

One of those... of me.

I should've ______________
But I didn't.
So, therefore _____________
And I surrender.

How often do you encounter this thought?
This 'thought-connector' has been a default story of my life far too many times than i could even remember.
Sometimes, quitting is more tiring than fighting.

Thursday, April 28, 2005

My 1st attemp to blogging...

Browse around myspace and i feel like pasting back my 1st ever post on any blog... Boring kan, dah takde mende dah nak taruk.. It's 22:05 and I'm still in the office...Balik la ape lagi.. Cheers!

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Thursday, January 29, 2004

March and Mars

Do u know that the name of the month March derives from the planet Mars?
Since i was born in March, i want to believe that i actually belong in Mars, not planet Earth. But, if women are from Venus and men are from Mars, where do i go? Among the men in Mars? uhhh~ it's getting hot in here!

But then again, the Ancient dudes believed that Mars (in Greek:Ares) is God of War. So if i'm to be left alone (well, maybe i shouldn't be greedy..) ok, if women who were born in March are to be placed in Mars with our counterpart, that is very dangerous. If the planet has only men on it, it coulda, shoulda, woulda leads to war. The planet is not really safe for the women coz history shows that Wars (on earth.. I'm not sure if on Mars too) were created by men and for men only (as they came from the planet God of War :P)

Therefore, i dont want to be in Mars, neither Venus. Maybe i'll do just fine here on earth :) Coz women who rock the cradle can rock the world.. see that?!! hey, i'm a Rock chick!

p/s: was George Lucas thinking of Mars when he created Star Wars?



Monday, April 18, 2005

10 reasons why I feel gloomy today

  1. My day started with a scream! I certainly can't forget that scream for the rest of my life.
  2. My mom put a sour face when i waved her goodbye yesterday. I am so disturbed. She never did that before.. why??
  3. I fell asleep with my t-shirt and jeans on.. which means i wasn't prepared to go sleep and I missed my prayer..
  4. I did not have a good sleep.. i wasn't even sure if i was asleep at all and i woke up feeling miserable.
  5. Fieya greeted me "Morning!" Now..that's a damn rare occasion! And the living room was occupied with her bags and clothes.. yeah she was packing for Japan :( hukss.. And God, The Pianist was on the idiot box!!~
  6. I had a breakfast this morning with my 'breakfast partner', a schoolfren. Despite of her long history of being a "socialist" and a major flirt, her so-called permanent part time boyfriend asked her for a hand in marriage and she turned to me for advice. The thing is, i managed to talk her into settling down and all those shit which i have a hard time injecting them in my mind rite now... and tadaaa.. she's getting engaged next month! And just to add on to that, i made a joke with my GM's PA and she made a remark that i could be an old spinster by making such joke (whoooaattt?!)
  7. My GM's PA showed me a fax from our VP. It was a one-liner requesting for a written explanation on issues of the project I'm currently working on. A fax? Man, he must be pissed already. Now i'm waiting to be called into the lion's den (read: GM's office).
  8. I was suppose to run errands at lunchtime - exchange the Charle and cash in my cheque. And u know what, i was totally free today and i forgot!
  9. I have been hunting for ppl who owe me money and they are getting on my nerves already... Arghhh.. Screw me!
  10. Fieya and alliances are about to take off for Japan in an hour's time. Huksss... i'm so sad. I am so frustrated that i could not join them. I was so so so close of getting to go. But maybe lady luck was not on my side. But I really need to go off somewhere.
I need a break.. I need some changing air.. I don't want to go through another day here..like this.. Another boring day. Another headache. Another heartache. Maybe i could play one of the vanishing game.. Anyone with a magic stick?

Black Monday

It's Monday morning
Guilt and anger polluted the air
I have so much to say, it could burn your ears
But i'm just too tired
I need a break..

Friday, April 15, 2005

You know you are addicted to Star Wars when...

Got this quiz from blogthing
Come to think of it, it is quite hilarious...

You can recite *all* the dialogue from the trilogy.
Jigz: Not all.. probably some memorable ones.

You watch the entire trilogy at least once a month.
Jigz: Nehhh.. i rarely watch any DVDs at all.

You wonder why the SW theme never makes it into those "clasical collections."
Jigz: They didn't?

Any time you pick up a walkie-talkie or two-way radio, the first thing you say is "TK-421, why aren't you at your post?"
Jigz: Ain't got the chance.

Whenever you went anywhere outside with your friends, you always walked single file, to hide your numbers.
Jigz: Just because i dont want to be seen walking in a troop like Rombongan CIK Kiah

You've written several letters to the President recommending that he dissolve the council, put power in the hands of the regional governors, and let fear keep the local systems in line.
Jigz: Err, never. But I have raised issues about some senior managements to the Vise President and ask him to re-evaluate them... I have also tried to dissolve a project I'm currently working on.. Am i falling into the dark side now?

In college, after several hours of poker, you got thrown out of the game for suggesting, "How about some sabacc?"
Jigz: Sorry, I don't play poker.

When trying unsuccessfully to snare that last Cheerio floating in your cereal bowl, you remarked, "the Force is strong with this one."
Jigz: Never

On Halloween, you would never dress as: Luke, Han Solo, Leia, Vader, Chewie, Threepio, Artoo
Jigz: No, but i would consider Darth Maul (love his make up hihi) Darth Vader or Queen Amidala (hers too!)

However, you would dress as: Wedge, Porkins, Crix Madine, that spider droid from Jabba's palace that fat dancer from Jabba's palace, Sy Snootles, the Cantina bartender. The monster in the trash compactor, Boba Fett, An Imperial probe droid
Jigz: Tanak la.. tak cantik!

You've been pulled over by a policeman, and when asked to see your driver's license you replied, "You don't need to see my identification."
Jigz: I wish i have the guts.

And when he asks about your two friends in the back "They're for sale, if you want them."
Jigz: Hahaha.. never but i surely like to say one of those one day. hahaa

You have physically threatened anyone who referred to "Hans Solo" or "Dark Vader", confused Star Wars with Star Trek, or spellied Wookiee with only one "e."
Jigz: Never

You have held up an onion ring and said, "Look sir...droids!"
Jigz: Haha.. cute.

You've referred to Wedge Antilles or Boba Fett as "The Man."
Jigz: I don't like Boba Fett.. i just don't..

You've bought a white Isuzu Trooper, strictly because of the name.
Jigz: That's an expensive excuse! Hmm.. my latest confession, I had to apply for a RHB Corporate card just to get a Star Wars card tag. Well, after a few beggings :-D I'm wearing it every single day.

While sitting on the couch with your girlfriend, she comments about being cold. So, naturally, you slice open the side of the cushion and stuff her in.
Jigz: Oh no..

You insist on spelling Pizza Hut "Pizza Hutt."
Jigz: Never

You dropped your religion and now live the way Yoda taught you.
Jigz: Never. Not in a zillion year.

You recorded all the new Star Wars commercials.
Jigz: Erm... used to download them during uni time. Latest, i bought an NST and a Galaxie mag yesterday simply bcoz there's a half page article of Star Wars in it.

You frequently experience insomnia and, to counter this, begin counting nerfs.
Jigz: Never

You answer the phone "Die wanna wanga?"
Jigz: Never

Whenever you buy a new appliance, you make sure to get one that speaks Bacchi.
Jigz: Never

You call your aunt and uncle Aunt Beru and Uncle Owen.
Jigz: Never

Whenever you catch sight of cars behind yours, you say "Fighters, coming in, point three five."
Jigz: Never

Someone else in your car says "What about that tower?"
Jigz: Never

You respond, "You worry about those fighters, I'll worry about the tower", and moments later your car slams into the water tower the passenger was referring to.
Jigz: Never

When a cop catches you speeding, you floor it, saying "I've outrun Imperial starships, and not the local bulk cruisers..."
Jigz: Never.. gile ape?

When someone apologizes to you, you choke him and tell him that you accept his apology.
Jigz: Hahaha.. that's funny. Can try that

You ride your motorbike through the forest at top speed, and survive after throwing yourself off just before it hits a tree.
Jigz: Beshnye... If i have the guts to do that, I would

You've 'wielded' a flashlight and made humming sounds.
Jigz: Hahhaa... a flash of memory.. i wielded any long stick and pretended it a light saber..hiksss

You wave your hand purposefully and 'use the force' to open and close automatic doors or elevator doors.
Jigz: Hey, never thought of that but kewl~!

You go over to a friends, go to his refrigerator, and crawl in throwing food and stuff over your shoulder and grunting.
Jigz: Have some manners please

You walk into an optometrist's office and shout: You will PAY for your lack of vision!
Jigz: Never

You have a Yoda figurine replacing the brand symbol on the hood of your car.
Jigz: Gila fanatik!

When accelerating your car to enter the freeway, you tell your passengers to strap in and prepare for light speed.
Jigz: Hahahha.. guilty as charged! Usually i will ask them first, if they are into fast cars or not.. hekss..

Your significant other dumps you because everytime she/he says, "I love you" you always respond, "I know."
Jigz: The first time he said, "I love you", I said "Thanks". After that i feel like slapping my own face for saying that. Silly me! Lucky he didn't dump me :-P

You quote Yoda to defend your political beliefs.
Jigz: Nope.

You have so many SW Trilogy GIF's, JPG's, MIDI's, AVI's, WAV's, MPG's, icons and text files that you're rapidly running out of disk space and have to buy a bigger hard drive just to hold them all.
Jigz: Campuslife is the craziest life. That's all i can say, thank you.

You have so many SW posters that you can't see your ceiling or floor, either.
Jigz: One or two are acceptable. I dont need a wallpaper

You have so many SW toys that you can't see your SW posters anyway.
Jigz: Not that much. That reminds me, I need to get a bigger cabinet for my collection. Preparing for the birth of the final baby next month *wink*

When leaving a restaurant, you can't resist signing Boba Fett or Darth Vader in the guestbook.
Jigz: hihiii.. good idea dude

You went through a state of depression when Chewie died.
Jigz: Nehhh.. he's too hairy for me.

You look at "big hairy carpets" with more respect than before.
Jigz: Oh, Chewie

You speak Rodian.
Jigz: Can't even speak Japanese properly

You punch out trekkies who say "Death star my ass, I'd like to see those losers take out DS9."
Jigz: That's mean!

With a blue-tinted plastic tube, a flashlight, two hours of a Saturday night, and 4 rolls of blue electrical tape, you finally complete your own working "Light-saber"
Jigz: I know i will fail miserably on such attempt. So, i'll pass

You listen for Obi-Wan while attempting to parallel park
Jigz: Err.. no.

Your father asks you how fast your car is, and you reply, "Fast enough for you, old man!"
Jigz: If I'm on for a slap!

You could have sworn you saw bantha tracks during your trip to the grand canyon.
Jigz: Hahaha.. nehhh

Every time somebody sneezes, you say, "May the force be with you."
Jigz: For other occasions... but not sneezing

The cinnamon buns in your hair start to grow mold.
Jigz: Hahahkkss.. cute.

You call your friend who is a midget Wicket.
Jigz: Nasty!

You refer to money as credits without trying to.
Jigz: Ermm...

You respond to any mention of the legality of something with "I will make it legal."
Jigz: Hahhaa.. this is funny. If the force is with me...

You start reliving the speeder bike chase on your motorbike.
Jigz: Ain't got no motorbike.

Someone tells you your car is old and beat-up, you reply "She'll do .5 past light speed..."
Jigz: Hekss.. good one!

You refer to getting off the freeway as coming out of hyperspace.
Jigz: I tend to imagine things when i'm bored.

You are POSITIVE you are force-sensitive and only lack the proper training.
Jigz: Oh yeah.. and support.

Someone says they will try to do something you automatically respond "Do or do not. There is no try."
Jigz: Hahhaa.. so true! That's my frequent phrase to my downlines.. I hate the word TRY.

By intense study you have actually figured out the location of every gun implacement on a star destroyer.
Jigz: I haven't reach to that level yet.

Your house robe is brown and extra large.
Jigz: I dont have a robe but i love to have the jedi robe. Where can i get that?

You type in the terms for a search engine as if entering coordinates, then shout "Punch it, Chewie!" as you click on search.
Jigz: Wow, that's quite an imagination.

You argue about whether Star Wars is space fantasy or space opera.
Jigz: I always have a hard time explaining people the concept of Star Wars.

You're out looking for a Wookie for your school's wrestling team.
Jigz: hehh.. no.

You nickname your car the Millennium Falcon.
Jigz: Not yet.. maybe my new car.

The last time a cute guy tried to hug you, your hands were dirty.
Jigz: Hahhaaa.. luckily, no.

When your mom asks you to clean your room, you say "Leave that to me."
Jigz: No, usually i said, "Sat sat" hihiii

Your friends share recipes for cooking Ewok.
Jigz: No.

You have a long braid in you hair like Obi-Wan in E1.
Jigz: I don't.

You call your boss/teacher "Master"
Jigz: Only when teasing him/her.

You went to the nearest recruiting center and asked to be assigned to the 121st TIE squadren
Jigz: Never think of such attemp. Crazy!

When asked if you want to be buried or creamated you say "I'll just vanish like the rest of the Jedi"
Jigz: So far, no one ever wish me dead. Fuh~!

You have a bad feeling about everything.
Jigz: Not everything. That's just the force of nature.

While partying with friends, you do your Darth Vader impression.
Jigz: heh, no.

You try to get your car up to .5 beyond lightspeed, in a parking lot.
Jigz: Never.

You call your girlfriend, "your Highness."
Jigz: For real?

You keep calling your boyfriend, "Luke," "Han," or "Lando" by mistake.
Jigz: No, unfortunately he doesn't look like one

You believe John Williams is the best composer ever (which, of course, he is!), and George Lucas is a god (which, too, is pretty much true!)
Jigz: I pretty much adore the geniuses.

While listening to the soundtrack without knowing the name of the song you are listening to, you know exactly what's happening while it's playing.
Jigz: Not really.. not all.

In foreign language class, you tell the teacher, "Hey! If I'm fluent in over six million forms of communication, then how come I'm getting such a bad grade in this class?"
Jigz: Mad cow!

When your friends confide in you and tell you their deepest, darkest secrets, you say, "You are far too trusting."
Jigz: Never.

When your dad says, "I am your father," you begin to scream uncontrollably and shout, "NOOOO! It's not true!" at the top of your lungs.
Jigz: That's mean!

You have ever thought the world would be a better place if it were like the Rebel Alliance/New Republic.
Jigz: Kinda.. but we all know that it's all fiction rite?

You now want to become an astronaut to see if there really is a Lando system.
Jigz: hahha.. not to that extend.. pleeasee

Obiwan Kenobi and Yoda come to you in your dreams and give you advice about tough situations you're dealing with.
Jigz: Unfortunately no :(

Yoda's little sayings have had a profound impact on your life, and you abide by them religiously.
Jigz: he's a wise man... and kewl. But i don't follow him that much either.

You've created lyrics to the songs in Star Wars.
Jigz: No. Bad at writing lyrics.

Instead of saving for college, you save up for Star Wars stuff you plan to buy.
Jigz: Guilty as charged. Anyone, please buy me the light saber plizzzzzz.... hukssss.. I'm dying to have one.

Anyone who doesn't like Star Wars you proclaim is an Imperial.
Jigz: Kewl.

When you are ticked off at somebody, you send bounty hunters all over the place to find them and then you encase him in carbonite for a new wall decoration.
Jigz: Nehh...

When your alarm clock goes off in the morning, your reply is, "Unexpected this is... and unfortunate!"
Jigz: Hehh no.

When riding your bike, you look behind you and accelerate wildly by pressing down on the petal with your right toe.
Jigz: Whoaaa~!

You've kept the "good" action figures stored separately from the "bad" ones.
Jigz: No, i always put them facing each other as if they are ready to fight :-D

As a child, whenever you had broken something, your response was always, "It must've had a self-destruct mechanism. I didn't hit it that hard."
Jigz: Hihiihi funny but no.

You've refused to enter a cave/cavern/tunnel without a handgun and a large stick.
Jigz: Large stick.

When you waited for a friend to catch up with you, you told him to hurry up or he'd be a permanent resident.
Jigz: Hahhahaha.. that's a funnny one!

You've ever found yourself in a chat room, training Jedi.
Jigz: I wish i have an apprentice.

You've ever told your younger brother at the dinner table, "Use the fork, Luke."
Jigz: I don't have a younger bro.

You've ever roped off your Star Wars Action Figure collection, claiming it to be an independent nation.
Jigz: Never.

Hmm.. after all said and done, I really don't think that I'm addicted to Star Wars. I can't recall every single scenes from all 5 movies and I can't remember every single character.
I'm just a fan.. like any other people..
and it's always get me excited..
blood rushing in... every single time...

Watch out for Star Wars III: Revenge of the Sith on cinema May 19, 2005.
35 days Countdown!

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

This girl...

She's so skinny
She has bad complexion
She's so hairy
She doesn't have long sexy legs
She can't close her eyes when she sleeps
She eats like a horse
She sips her drink like a tortoise
She slouches
She will grow old as a hunchback

This girl...
She's loud
She's practically deaf
She talks too much
She's proud
She's clumsy
She's forgetful
She's blur
She's so grago

This girl...
She works too hard
She doesn't watch football
She hates hockey and PS2
She doesn't like pet
She's a bad driver
She listens to loud and noisy music
She doesn't like to stay home
She doesn't have time for you

This girl...
She's stubborn
She hates silence
She doesn't pay attention to what you're saying
She hates it when you don't pay attention to her
She hates when you nag, even when you don't
She doesn't take advice
She's sickening
She's a pain in the ass
She's annoying
She makes you hate her

This girl...
She's everything you don't like in a girl
So why do you still want her?

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Dreams and fear

I walk towards my dreams
but look behind on every step with fear
on bleeding feet of sadness
through the alley of darkness
these fear is squeezing my mind
Impulsive as they come
just screaming to pull out of the plastic life

torching path of life
with a ray of hope
penetrating thru holes in my heart
lifting haze of fear from my eyes
whispering joy to my trembing ears
now it has gotten under my skin
but i dont know if i should give up or give in
to make dreams become reality
or to let fear sink in

Friday, March 25, 2005

Wishlist updated v2

My wishlist:

1. A PDA
2. New purse
3. New handphone
4. A digital SLR-like camera with >10x optical zoom
5. New sunglasses (preferably identical to my beloved sunglasses that my mom accidently flushed down the toilet :( )
6. A holiday with my new camera and sunglasses!! yeeehhhaa!!

Trackback wishlist updated v1

Skip 4 & 5 - I'm jumping to no 6.
I'm glad to announce that now i have almost enough fund to go to China & Egypt next year. Alhmadulillah..
My next target is to increase the fund to support my mom. She always wanted to go to China.. Hopefully i can bring my sister along ;-)
No 4 and 5 became minor priorities now..
I have another special gift for my parents.. my target : 2006

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Nicest thing...

I'm adding a year to my life calendar today. It feel so good, i feel like it's the best special day ever.. and the day is not over yet.
Things are alot more sweeter when you dont have any expectation. It will just fly in your window. It's not about gifts and fancy restaurants and all those bling bling..
It's the thoughts and sincere effort that comes a long way..

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Heat off

Sometimes it's just frustrating when I'm disappointed or pissed off with sum ppl, I just do not know how to express my frustration directly to em. And when i try to keep it within, it'll just blow off sumwhere else and totally make a mess out of my life. Moment of catastrophy. Hate the person to bit.. well only for that moment.

Things would be much easier if i can just close my eyes and tell em off and slam the door. But no.. i just choose to mess with my head until it get cleared off on its own.
And the worse part is.. the person doesnt even have a clue!

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Self-actualization

Why people need to change?
Why do we need to grow up?
Why growing up packaged with tons of responsibilities?
And why are there expectations that we need to live up to while climbing the stairs of life?
If we are not ready to face the expectation now, will we be ready tomorrow or even in a zillion years?

These few days i've been doing serious thinking of my life. I think i want to shift course.
At this point of time, I am still uncertain if i'm doing the right thing.. Probably the right thing for some people but my job doesn't excite me. My life doesn't excite me that much as well.

Yeah... You have a conflict when you know exactly what you want in life and you are not going toward the direction.
U know you have a conflict when u know for a fact that u need to do some dramatic changes in your life but u are too afraid of the consequences.
My hunch is that there are a lot of people like me--people who always felt called toward a certain type of career or goal in life, but who wound up grabbing the first safety rope that appeared. You can definitely climb that rope pretty high, and even make lots of money and have an impressive-sounding job title. But it's no key to satisfaction because you can never escape what you know inside: that there's something else you'd rather be doing, if only you had the courage and the opportunity to do it.

They say if you don't love what you do and look forward to doing it, that means you are condemning yourself to a life of discontent.
Hey dude, it's not as easy as it seem. Just because I don't like what I do now, does not mean I can quit the whole thing right now and shift away. This literally means i voluntarily send myself to a death sentence! I still have mouths to feed. Yup, my own and those little kitties!

Friday, March 11, 2005

Heya~

Hullo frens,

Been awhile since i last update this blog. Been busy with my sister's wedding (last weekend). Not to mention the workload that i left behind. The price to pay for a week break!

I've got a meeting to catch.. chow~!

Thursday, February 17, 2005

The thing with the Malaysian Corporate Company

I can't say that i hate my job coz it feeds me everyday. But I hate dealing with people of the company i'm working with more than dealing with anybody else in the world. I can't seem to understand and tolerate with ppl who are passive (read: SLOW!). They are just testing my patience! I don't brisk walk so please... If you can't run, could you at least jog? Sigh, no wonder alot of Malaysians have fat asses!

I know some people in my team might not like me... They would probably be talking ill of me rite now. When i work, i don't like hanky panky. Just get down to business. And that's why some people take me for granted. That's when i would gladly fire them back, even in a meeting and even if she/they are of higher rank than me. Older is not wiser. It's the speed of the IQ & EQ get u where u wanna go. Sometimes i wonder how some ppl get promoted when he/she is just a plain stupid! Anyone wants to protest against promotion based on seniority system? I dont even wanna start with Malays & the Malay dilemma. Sucks, man!

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Yikes!

Demmm i posted too much of junk! I ain't got no time and no idea to think of anything good! I need some inspiration *sigh*

Work pressure + lack of sleep + too much caffein = brain numbness

I hate this blog! and i need more coffee...

Judging me by my birthmonth

MARCH:
Attractive personality ( pheewittt!!)
Sexy (...lies in the eyes of the beholder)
Affectionate (*big huggg*)
Shy and reserved (my Social PersonalityDisorder)
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic (Amin)
Loves peace and serenity (so that i could sleep easy)
Aggressive when provoked (sometimes even when not)
Sensitive to others :)
Loves to help others (...aren't we all?)
Not easily angered (I am water)
Trustworthy (I'd like to believe so)
Defends others (sumtimes gets me into unnecessary trouble)
Appreciative and returns kindness (so that we can live in a perfect harmony)
Observant and assesses others (it is pretty interesting to learn social psychology)
Varied interests (yups, i get excited over stuff easily)
Loves to dream and fantasize (ehehh...)
Loves traveling (of course!)
Loves attention (can't help it. i'm the youngest in the family)
Strong belief system (erkk...)
Hasty in trusting others (just being careful)
Loves home decors (alot!! can't wait to have my own hse)
Musically talented (hahaha.. now that's a good joke)
Depends on friends (depends on the kind of fren that is)
Loves special things (hikss.. u & i are special *wink*)
Moody and easily hurt (guilty as charged! but i rarely express my feelings)
A giving lover (...is better than receiving)
Very loyal (certainly trying my best :)
Deep Thinker (hmmh...)
Feels deeply (i hope i dont get drown!)
A romantic (eh u?)
Loves to be loved (who doesn't?)
Thrifty (I wanna be thirty, trendy & thrifty ;-)
Loves down time alone (to be specific - location: Sushi King)

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

I googled me!

I googled me (again!), and I found this ;-)

Description of Your First Name of: Shuhaizee

The following brief summary describes only a few qualities of your first name. There are many additional factors (legal name, nicknames, family surname, combined names, previous names, business signature, and, very importantly, your inner potential or birthpath as determined from your date of birth) that create and mold your entire personality - and your entire life.

Although the name Shuhaizee creates an active mind and a restless urge to explore new ideas, we emphasize that it frustrates you through a scattered and emotional nature. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the solar plexus, liver and bloodstream.

Your first name of Shuhaizee has given you a quick, active mind, which has caused you to delve into many different ideas and theories. You have a desire for association with people and, since you have no difficulty in being spontaneous and expressive with others, you have considerable ability for discussion and debate. You enjoy unexpected opportunities for meeting people, or doing things on the spur of the moment. Where you have difficulty is in organizing and systematizing the handling of your responsibilities. Though you can work on any undertaking intently as long as it absorbs your interest, you cannot persevere when confronted by obstacles or by tedious monotony. Thus your success in your undertakings is limited.

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If i could rate to this Kabalarian Philosaphy, i would give it a 4.5 over 5. All have been perfectly define as me. Yes, this is exactly the Shuhaizee that i am. The 0.5 that i hold back is the last line, which i presume is the summary of my name - that fails me. Sorry, I beg to differ.

"I had thought her a mere social climber. But i see her now a mountaineer"