4 in the morning

I don't know why... I have goose bumps and butterfly in my stomach every time I see him, talk to him, or even think of him. More than often, I think that the feeling is real.
It is real... I know it's real. I just don't know the reason of its existence as I don't even know him..not that much...
All these while, I thought I could never have this feeling ever again.
It hurts, to know that you love someone, and not believing of its existence.
I just freaked out.

I don't know if he knows...
It's not about wanting him to like me too..
Love is something you give away, without expecting something in return.

I'm just content.

I am just content that it is still exist. I still have it in my heart.
It is still there, just waiting for the right person to come along and steal it away.

Jigz config

5.39am still at customer site for IPVPN migration.
Body clock set to 60 hours of uptime.
jigz>
jigz>enable
jigz#config terminal
jigz(config)#show interface
jigz(config)#no shutdown

water never runs dry

I finally realized that I need to let it all go.
I dont wanna stuck in emotional vacuum anymore.
Sea breeze truly took it all away...

Today I feel ok.
Today I feel at peace.
Today I feel blessed.
Today I feel happy.
Today I feel content.

Today is the day that I am moving on.

Banyaknye kejeeeeee!!! Nak stadi pon tak sempat nihhh...
Senin nak exam...
Arghhhh, pressure!!!!

Close to 80 smses exchanged in a day.
Wow, that's like a world record for someone who hates texting!

GTD - Giggly Transmitted Disease

What is GTD?
Giggly Transmitted Disease (GTD) is the name of a condition in a person where the normal balance of laugh is disrupted and replaced by a certain donkey sound at the end of the laugh. It is sometimes accompanied by discharge of eeikk eikk, kikikiki, oukk oukk oukkk, or any high pitch weird sound.

How common is GTD?
Very common. It can lasts all day, with the right partner.

How do people get GTD?
The cause of GTD is not fully understood. GTD is associated with an imbalance in the laugh that are normally found in a joke transmission. The continuous jokes normally contain mostly "good" jokes, and "harmful" jokes. GTD develops when there is an increase virus in jokes and can prolonged even when jokes end.

Not much is known about how people get GTD. There are many unanswered questions about the role that jokes play in causing GTD. Any person can get GTD. However, some activities or behaviors can upset the normal balance of laugh and put a person at increased risk including:

• Having a new giggle partner or multiple giggle partners,
• Hanging out with brain damaged people, and
• Indulging in any device of pleasure (DOP) such as alcohol or weed (though it is not recommended).

It is not clear what role giggly activity plays in the development of GTD. GTD can't be transmitted through thin air. People do not get GTD from toilet seats, bedding, swimming pools, or from touching people with GTD. People who are cranky and take life seriously are rarely affected. It can only be affected through joke intercourse. The risk is higher when the partner/s share the same wavelength.

What are the signs and symptoms of GTD?

A person with GTD may has an abnormal high pitch sound discharge with an unpleasant laugh. Some people report a strong donkey-like sound, especially at the end of the laugh. The discharge, if present, can be irritating for other people that are blur and don't share the same wavelength, and even to the surrounding when the GTD-infected people can't control the joke intercourse. Some people with GTD sometimes don't even notice any signs or symptoms at all until they have itching stomach, or other people start giving weird look.

What are the complications of GTD?

In most cases, GTD causes no complications. But there are some serious risks from GTD including:

• Having GTD can increase a person's susceptibility to look stupid.

• Having GTD while working may put a person in the risk of being called a psychotic for laughing with the computer.

• Having GTD increases the chances to pass the infection to their other partner, or partners if more.

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  Having GTD has been associated with an increase in the brain numbness following psychological procedures such as a hysteria or an brain damage.

• Having GTD while pregnancy may put a woman at increased risk for some complications of pregnancy.

How can GTD be prevented?

GTD is not completely understood by scientists, and the best ways to prevent it are unknown. However, it is known that GTD is associated with having an abnormal lepak partner or having multiple partners. It is seldom found in a person who is anti-social, or a serious bitch.

The following basic prevention steps can help reduce the risk of upsetting the natural balance of laugh and developing GTD:

• Be abstinent.

• Limit the number of lepakking partners.

• Disconnect all communication to the world.

• Use all of the medicine prescribed for treatment of GTD, even if the signs and symptoms go away.

• Be sengal and blur (but that increase the risk getting GTD of other partners).

What is the treatment for GTD?

Although GTD will sometimes clear up without treatment, all people with symptoms of GTD should be treated to avoid the risk of being labelled as psychotic. In order to treat a person with GTD, his/her partners generally need to be treated too. Effectively, separate them apart for a period of time. However, this could lead to a side effect of loneliness and depression, and probably end up as a cranky old man/woman.

Two different antibiotics are said to numb GTD: work pressure or bad news. The antibiotics can be given to the patient simultaneously, but the recommended dosages differ.

Take note that GTD can recur after treatment.

life is just funny like dat.

i giggled alot today...
i laugh at nothing n everything n tahpehape.
i'm like, feakin' stoned and fuckin' drunk but sober.
life is just funny like dat.

u know, there are times of sakit, of tears, of laughter, or heartache, of stress, of joy, of play, of hate, of bad hairdays (??!!), of sangap, of party, of bongok... those are pieces of life.
just walk thru it all. it's gonna be ok. i'm gonna be all right.

28th crap

sakit pale sakit perut sakit tulang sakit otak sakit hati


sangat letih
sangat kecewa
sangat sedey :(






oh, crap!
kenapa la pompuan kena mengharungi detik-detik high and low of emotions setiap bulan?
Is losing a can of blood not enough?

Hidup ini penuh dengan crap

Pagi ini saya bangun tido dengan takde mood utk pergi keje.
Hari ini bukan Monday so bukan la monday blues kan?
Hari ini Tuesday tapi mana ada tueday blues kan?
Tapi saya sungguh rasa blues hari ini.

So saya fikir saya kena betulkan mood saya hari ini.
Saya bangun sangat pagi hari ini dan saya pilih untuk pakai baju yang sangat cantik sekali.
Saya pakai baju kebaya nyonya warna hijau daun pisang berkerawang bunga ros kaler pink, dipadankan dengan pants warna off-white.
Ramai orang di ofis puji saya kerana saya kelihatan begitu cantik hari ini.
Macam tak percaya je ada orang cakap "You look gorgeous today." Bukan tak pernah orang puji saya, tapi kakak yang puji saya itu amat garang. Dia suka marah orang... jarang puji orang. So patut la kan saya bangga? Ada pulak tiba-tiba orang cakap kasut saya cantik. hampir tiap-tiap hari saya pakai kasut tu, tapi arini je ke kasut tu nampak cantik? Tapi tak kisah la kan. Mungkin dia tak sampai hati nak cakap saya yang cantik hari ni (huhuu jahatnyer!!)

Tapi saya tetap emo hari ini.
Orang kata pakaian boleh mempengaruhi mood seseorang.
Orang kata compliments pon boleh menceriakan hari seseorang.
Tapi kenapa saya tetap takde mood harini?
Tipu la sape yang cakap camtu...

Pastu saya chat dengan kawan saya. Nama dia kyra. Dia dekat langkawi sekarang. Dia cakap dia nak bagi saya coklat banyak-banyak.
Yeayyy yeayyyyyyyyy!! Hepinyer saya.
Sayangggggg Kyra, dia tau camne nak hepikan saya.
Nasib baik dia pompuan dan saya bukan lesbian. Kalau tak lama dah saya cium-cium dia banyak-banyak kali sampai dia rimas, macam saya cium Adam Iman.

Tapi kegembiraan itu hanya seketika cuma... pasal tak sampai setengah jam lepas tu, saya dapat bad news lain pulak. Potong gile...
Sedih balik :(

The eye orientation

I had an interview with Group Brand Management.
I was wearing a suit that day.
A friend asked me, "Are you gonna wear that to the interview?"
"Yes, tak ok ke?"
"Branding kan? Pakai bra je la!"
"Siot jer!!"
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As I stepped in the Senior Manager's office...
wow, she was gorgeous i tell u she looked like Gloria Estefan.

She was wearing a purple v-line low cut blouse ala gloria in the pic, with black big buckle belt and a pair of matching skirt....
Gile MILF wehhhh!!!

I sat down in front of her.
My eye level was at her long sexy neck.
I had a hard time adjusting my eyes to tilt up
.... or down.

Tiba-tiba macam nak tergelak...
Aku yang pompuan pon rasa she was alluring
Imagine la, kalo laki yang gi interview ni camne eh?
Memang tak jadik keje la kan...

Where's Homer ?

Homer was kidnapped - during his visit to Malaysia!
Who would have dare to pull off something like that?
Sick! But nice one bro!!

Fuckin a Cigarette anyone?

A friend sent this image to me with the title, "How to stop women from smoking"
Alerr... gile salah statement tu.

Kenapa pompuan takkan berenti dengan adanya rokok ni:

1. Bleh isap byk2 kali tanpa rasa bersalah.


2. Cool ape?


3. It's an IN thing.


4. Leh challenge org laki jadik perokok + pervert.


5. Bleh isap kat public tanpa kena tangkap.


6. Scenario: After a memancing session kat disko, "So, do you wanna come over to my place afterwards?" (which by the way, he meant "let's go and have sex" in case if u r lurus bendul), minah tu dengan penuh bangga dan angkuh kuarkan kotak rokok, amikkan sebatang and say "It's ok, I've already got a companion". Tsskkkk...!!


7. Dosa ringan vs dosa berat.
   


8. Anywhere, anytime.


9. Can leave a guy to his imagination and desperation.


10. Kompem takde STDs.


11. Slamber leh pakai buang.


12. Bleh jadik high-class bohsia... like, "eleh, stakat rokok biasa ape class... rokok gua lagi cara beb"

Kenapa org laki kompem berenti:

Macam takyah list out byk2 aa... Ask yourself la guys, sanggup ke if orang nampak ko isap mende tu kat public? Sanggup?
Well, unless if you are a proud-fuckin-gay!

Hence, "How to stop men from smoking" is more appropriate.

please please please someone hypnotize me into loving my job


btw, berat badan gua dah naik 1 kg from last week
yabbedabeduuuuuu!!
makan lagi makan makan makannnn sampai gemuksss

tskkk!!

the whole nine yards

I don't think I'm having PMS, as my menstrual cycle just completed its course yesterday.
But I cried. I was listening to "What Hurts the Most" by Monica and I cried.
Oh boy, I miss him. And it hurts.
I can't believe after so long i am missing him still.

It could have been our 96, and it could be our 9th since the 1st date.

There are things that i regret of doing in my life.
Breaking up with him is one of it.

Drivemocion

I've just uploaded an official website for Drivemocion. Check it out here.
I'd say pretty ok for over-the-weekend work.
Temporary je... bila ada masa nanti saya buat la better sket ok kwn2.

Btw, Drivemocion is a cool car signage with messages and emocions (“smileys”) which drivers can use to communicate with other drivers.
Girls, i think it's a good news to y'all... Now everybody can have 5 seconds of flirt without much of an effort to look pretty behind the wheels ;-)

Check out its first ever review in News Straits Times here.
"You have smileys on your computer and on your phone. Now prepare to use them on your car"
by RIDZWAN A. RAHIM.
Kinda like that tag!

The Oxtail Soup

I said, this could be a perfect day for me. Sleep in.. Movie marathon.. Cool, rainy day... Pastu pekena sup ekor panas.. Beshnyeer!!!

And a guy laughed like I just made a perverted joke.

We went to Jalan Doraisamy as Ayu and I wanted to accomplish the perfect-day mission.
Sup ekor panas dalam periuk besar kat warung sorong blakang lorong, dipped with slices of bread, traditionally baked in a charcoal oven. I call it Soup the Hard Rock Sg Segget style.
I ordered the ox tail soup and seek approval from Babathe who introduced me to the joint.
The Indian hawker gave me a strange look. So as the elderly Malay couple who sat next to me... apparently because I said "Ok tak babat, ok tak ni, ok tak?" enthusiastically when I ordered the soup.

Then the guy gave dat stupid laugh again...

I was seeking for the opinion on the taste of the soup, not how the aphrodisiac substance can do to my estrogen level la, you all freaking perverts!

It was the picture perfect, the whole scenario... and the soup.
And people's perception of it.

Dream a lill dream of you makes my heart bloom :)

I had a dream.
Such a sweet dream in such a long time.
It was surreal... but nice :)

I didn't want to wake up. I didn't want it to end.
I got really cranky in the morning, and I thought today is probably gonna be a dreadful day.

But here I am... feeling great instead.
I'd rather have it in my dream than not having it at all :)

Have a nice day, ppl!

Travel Asia: Bangkok

Back from Bangkok with my 3 fabulous mates - Jie, Ayu and Lyn.

It was a four days trip of unforgettable memories.

We went to Grand Palace, then took a crazy 7 baht busride to Khao San Road. We fell in love with the place immediately that we decided to stay there for the next two nights.

Sawadee ka...

I think this bus is older than bas no5A i rode in JB 15 years ago

Shopping marathon began soon as the sun set in. We made way to Khao San night market, went back to our hotel in Silom, get freshened up and head straight to Patpong with a tuk tuk already waiting. It was a crazy night for us, almost unbearable, but unforgettable. Enough said.

2nd day is a Chatuchak marathon day - the biggest sport event. 9am - 5pm: hazardous for people with a weak heart and small pocket.
But we did not manage to reach the finishing line. 15,000 gerai... gile ape! Plus it was bloody hot and packed in the afternoon.

Then The Calypso Ladyboys Show at night. Then a little shopping at Hard Rock Cafe, Bangkok.

Stupid taxi driver - caused us 400 baht and 15 minutes walk (or maybe more) to Shawn hotel...

The Thai version Marilyn Monroe

He's damn funny!

3rd day was a Kanchanaburi trekking day.The pickup was at 7am and we were taken with minibus to Kanchanaburi - started with an allied cemetry about 2 hours from Bangkok. Then to the war museum and the famous bridge over the River Kwai. Then we travelled by train along the death railway. We had a Thai lunch on a floating bamboo raft overlooking a river (forgot the name!). After lunch, we headed to the local elephant camp where we rode elephants and enjoy some traditional bamboo rafting before taken to a local waterfall and then returning to Bangkok by 6.30pm.
One word to describe: Breathtaking.

Waiting for the ride to the dead

His name is Sandi, and she is Enoi

Final day is the empty-your-pocket activity.

Great great fun!!

For more pics, please ask the url from me, ok gals...
Men, please... don't even bother to ask.

Oh by the way, I bought this book while I was there. It was a real deal, I tell u! Ohhh, I so lurveee buying books while on vacation.

Khao San Road is a heaven for a backpacker, and also a bookworm like me (nehhh!!). The Thais there sell used stuff by the roadside. Numerous of good books, travel guides (lonely planet), backpacks, clothes, independent records and loads of other interesting stuff.
The fruit shake is also so so yummyyy!!

I also bought The Summon by John Grisham. At first I thought of buying all novels by John Grisham that were on the rack since I already have a few on my shelf, tapi apakan daya... poket saya sudah bocor :( padahal dah bargain2 macam nak mampos... I got 4 books for 500 baht tetapi kechiwanya daku.. bila check2, hanya ada 300 baht je dalam pocketku. And 100baht was to be saved for the airport taxi fare.
Sungguh sedihhh...

Happiness

I have a friend who never seem to be happy with his life, or at least that is how i perceive him. Despite of all that he has, he rarely put a smile on his face. I couldn't even remember when was the last time he was sincerely happy. He told me that he does not lead a happy life, that he is so full of burden n problems that he can't enjoy life no more.

I asked him the other day, "When was the last time you were really happy?"
He just sat there... silently.
Only later he slowly said, "This is how i am, and this is how i will be sampai bila-bila."
I don't want to offer any pity, or sympathy coz he chose to be like that.
And God's will, that's how he will be.

So hear this my friend...
We convinced ourselves life will be better once we are married, have a baby, then another.

Then we get frustrated because our children are not old enough, and all will be well when they are older.

Then we get frustrated because our children has reach adolosence and we have to deal with them. Surely we will be happier when they grow out of their teen years.

We tell ourselves that our life will be better when our spouse gets his/her act together, when we have a nicer car, when we can take a vacation, when we retire.

The turth is that there is no better time to be happy than right now.
If not, then when?
Your life will always be full of challenges. It is better to admit as much and decide to be happy despite of it all.

So enjoy every moment.
Stop waiting for a cute guy/girl to steal your heart, to lose ten pounds, to gain ten pounds, for work to begin, for your birthday, to get married, for the first or the fifteenth of the month, for your song to be played, to die, to be reborn.... before deciding to be happy.

For the longest time, it seemed that life was about to start. Real life.
But there was always some obstacle along the way, an ordeal to get through, some work to be finished, some time to be given, a bill to be paid. Then life would start.
I finally came to understand that those obstacles were life.

That point of view helped me see that there isn't any road to happiness.
Happiness IS the road.

Happiness is a voyage, not a destination.
There is no better time to be happy, than NOW!!
Live and enjoy the moment...

My dear friend,
It doesn't take much to be happy, at least a little bit of things everyday
Being happy is so easy if u know how to
Forget about getting bigger things, bigger dreams
Just be happy with all little things in life everyday
For all you know, things will turn out ok, insyaAllah

Be the first one to give a smile
Make someone's day brighter with a simple compliment... everyday
Be thankful and grateful of what u have... ur hse, ur car, ur goodlooking face
every single day...
ur daily chores... finish up small things before u even dream of big things

Sometimes we are left wit no option
sometimes we just have to take what's in front of us
You are better off than some people
Don't dream of the sky
when you can't even see the steps of your feet
I'm sorry i said that... but for once... i want to see you be actually happy
For once.

Started with love, ended with hate...

I was once told - no matter how much you love this man,
no matter how much he may love you, but if ever he lifts a hand and hits you...
he's not worth it....
I do not think this is easy...
but I guess it is true...

I got flowers today.
It wasn't my birthday or any other special day.
We had our first argument last night, and he said a lot of cruel
things that really hurt me.
I know he is sorry and didn't mean the things he said, because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today.
It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day.
Last night, he threw me into a wall and started to choke me.
It seemed like a nightmare. I couldn't believe it was real.
I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over.
I know he must be sorry.
Because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today,
and it wasn't Mother's Day or any other special day.
Last night, he beat me up again.
And it was much worse than all theother times.
If I leave him, what will I do?
How will I take care of my kids?
Wha tabout money?
I'm afraid of him and scared to leave.
But I know he must be sorry.
Because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today.
Today was a very special day.
It was the day of my funeral.
Last night, he finally killed me.
He beat me to death.
If only I had gathered enough courage and strength to leave him, I would not have gotten flowers today.

If it starts with a heat argument and bad remarks, then you know how it would probably end.

Highlight for the day

3 berita penting hari ini that caught my attention, right down to the nerves...

Harga barang runcit mula naik
When Government announced increase of 10-40% pay raise for civil servants, peniaga announce barang naik harga... One million government servants naik gaji, lagi 25 millions of Malaysian population kena tempias ke?
Give some respect la people, they don't get pay raise every year... Can we not take advantage of other people's suffering not? Orang baru nak bernafas, lu dah kasik kentut kat muka...

But then again... CEUPACS' justification for the pay raise, among other, was that their productivity and performance have improved. Come to think of it, 1 civil servant for every 26 citizens? Seriously?! I'm sorry, again, what has improved...?

CSR: TM sedia RM75j atasi syarikat lain
Government has increased salary 10% - 40% for the civil servants, TM increased their social responsibilities to more than 3%, as compared to the standard 1% by other companies.
TM has also approved salary adjustment for the non-executives salary to 5.5% increment. Read here.
Society has got better attention from TM, non-execs got theirs also. Executives? I say, if you are not under NUTE (Telecom Sector Unions), you might as well stay MUTE!

Pengacara TV3 dituduh ambil pil khayal
Isn't it ironic, for an anti-crime celeb who appears on TV every week fighting against crimes, gedebak-gedebuk lebih2 dari polis, was caught doing the very thing he was fighting against?
What goes around comes around, huh?

Wait a minute, this Umaisyah Abd Rahim gal... Wasn't she the one who testify against Mamat Exist for a rape charge some 10 years ago?

Hancur

Kukatakan dengan indah
Dengan terbuka
Hatiku hampa
Sepertinya luka
Menghampirinya

Kau beri rasa
Yang berbeda
Mungkin kusalah
Mengartikannya
Yang kurasa cinta

Tetapi hatiku
Selalu meninggikanmu
Terlalu meninggikanmu
Selalu meninggikanmu

Kau hancurkan hatiku
Hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu

Kau terangi jiwaku
Kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu

Membuatku terjatuh
Dan terjatuh lagi
Membuatku merasakan
Yang tlah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik
Dan terlewati
Semua yang terhenti
Tanpa kuakhiri

of Peter Pan's kukatakan dengan indah

Who am I in your life?

Life is the process of finding love,
every person will need to find four people in their life.
First person is yourself,
second person is the one you love most,
third person is the one who love you most,
and the fourth, is the one you spend the rest of your life with.

In life, firstly you will meet the one you love most,
and learn how love feels;
Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who love you most;
When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most,
Then you will find the person who is suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life,
these three people are usually not the same person.
The one you love most, doesn't love you;
The one who love you most, is never the one you love most;
And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most,
he is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.

So, which person are you in other people's life?
Which person have you found so far?
In the world so big, which person have you found?
And who has found you?

No person will purposely have a change of heart.
At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you;
But when he doesn't love you anymore, he really don't love you anymore;
When he loves you, he can't pretend that he doesn't;
Same goes, when he loves you no more, there's no way he can pretend he loves you.
Love is not a possession.
If you still love him, you should wish him happiness,
and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it.
If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don't love him,
And if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?

*this is an excerpt from my older post
...bcoz i need to be doped again*

Senses

If you notice, I just added some spices on my blog...
The look of this blog has never changed since the first time. I was not really into commercializing this rubbish site of mine but since there is a new excitement or shall i say demam among my colleagues on the AdSense thingy ( i will write about my colleagues seasonal demams... those guys just never fail me... lurvvee them all *wink*), i played along with them and added it in.

So u guysss, plis pliss plisss click on those buttons down there (i mean on my blog... not in those pants, u pervert!!) and help me add some coins in my pocket. Most of all, help me win this game... coz i definitely can't beat them on table tennis :(

Now go go go click away guysss....
Nanti kite blanjer cendol keh! (",)

Broken wings...

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away

I've been haunted by the past.
Past that I thought didn't matter much to me... but it does.
I've been having sleepless nights, I broke down...
It had me days and nights, and played with my dreams...
It got me real bad - I went blank and almost fainted yesterday.

I can't explain what went inside my head.
I was told to move on, but a part of me still hold back.
I was told to let it out, and let go...
But the memories still keep coming back to me.

I wish things are as simple as it may seem.
But it's not...
I could just let it all go... I just can't.
I don't even know if I ever will...