You know you are addicted to Star Wars when...

Got this quiz from blogthing
Come to think of it, it is quite hilarious...

You can recite *all* the dialogue from the trilogy.
Jigz: Not all.. probably some memorable ones.

You watch the entire trilogy at least once a month.
Jigz: Nehhh.. i rarely watch any DVDs at all.

You wonder why the SW theme never makes it into those "clasical collections."
Jigz: They didn't?

Any time you pick up a walkie-talkie or two-way radio, the first thing you say is "TK-421, why aren't you at your post?"
Jigz: Ain't got the chance.

Whenever you went anywhere outside with your friends, you always walked single file, to hide your numbers.
Jigz: Just because i dont want to be seen walking in a troop like Rombongan CIK Kiah

You've written several letters to the President recommending that he dissolve the council, put power in the hands of the regional governors, and let fear keep the local systems in line.
Jigz: Err, never. But I have raised issues about some senior managements to the Vise President and ask him to re-evaluate them... I have also tried to dissolve a project I'm currently working on.. Am i falling into the dark side now?

In college, after several hours of poker, you got thrown out of the game for suggesting, "How about some sabacc?"
Jigz: Sorry, I don't play poker.

When trying unsuccessfully to snare that last Cheerio floating in your cereal bowl, you remarked, "the Force is strong with this one."
Jigz: Never

On Halloween, you would never dress as: Luke, Han Solo, Leia, Vader, Chewie, Threepio, Artoo
Jigz: No, but i would consider Darth Maul (love his make up hihi) Darth Vader or Queen Amidala (hers too!)

However, you would dress as: Wedge, Porkins, Crix Madine, that spider droid from Jabba's palace that fat dancer from Jabba's palace, Sy Snootles, the Cantina bartender. The monster in the trash compactor, Boba Fett, An Imperial probe droid
Jigz: Tanak la.. tak cantik!

You've been pulled over by a policeman, and when asked to see your driver's license you replied, "You don't need to see my identification."
Jigz: I wish i have the guts.

And when he asks about your two friends in the back "They're for sale, if you want them."
Jigz: Hahaha.. never but i surely like to say one of those one day. hahaa

You have physically threatened anyone who referred to "Hans Solo" or "Dark Vader", confused Star Wars with Star Trek, or spellied Wookiee with only one "e."
Jigz: Never

You have held up an onion ring and said, "Look sir...droids!"
Jigz: Haha.. cute.

You've referred to Wedge Antilles or Boba Fett as "The Man."
Jigz: I don't like Boba Fett.. i just don't..

You've bought a white Isuzu Trooper, strictly because of the name.
Jigz: That's an expensive excuse! Hmm.. my latest confession, I had to apply for a RHB Corporate card just to get a Star Wars card tag. Well, after a few beggings :-D I'm wearing it every single day.

While sitting on the couch with your girlfriend, she comments about being cold. So, naturally, you slice open the side of the cushion and stuff her in.
Jigz: Oh no..

You insist on spelling Pizza Hut "Pizza Hutt."
Jigz: Never

You dropped your religion and now live the way Yoda taught you.
Jigz: Never. Not in a zillion year.

You recorded all the new Star Wars commercials.
Jigz: Erm... used to download them during uni time. Latest, i bought an NST and a Galaxie mag yesterday simply bcoz there's a half page article of Star Wars in it.

You frequently experience insomnia and, to counter this, begin counting nerfs.
Jigz: Never

You answer the phone "Die wanna wanga?"
Jigz: Never

Whenever you buy a new appliance, you make sure to get one that speaks Bacchi.
Jigz: Never

You call your aunt and uncle Aunt Beru and Uncle Owen.
Jigz: Never

Whenever you catch sight of cars behind yours, you say "Fighters, coming in, point three five."
Jigz: Never

Someone else in your car says "What about that tower?"
Jigz: Never

You respond, "You worry about those fighters, I'll worry about the tower", and moments later your car slams into the water tower the passenger was referring to.
Jigz: Never

When a cop catches you speeding, you floor it, saying "I've outrun Imperial starships, and not the local bulk cruisers..."
Jigz: Never.. gile ape?

When someone apologizes to you, you choke him and tell him that you accept his apology.
Jigz: Hahaha.. that's funny. Can try that

You ride your motorbike through the forest at top speed, and survive after throwing yourself off just before it hits a tree.
Jigz: Beshnye... If i have the guts to do that, I would

You've 'wielded' a flashlight and made humming sounds.
Jigz: Hahhaa... a flash of memory.. i wielded any long stick and pretended it a light saber..hiksss

You wave your hand purposefully and 'use the force' to open and close automatic doors or elevator doors.
Jigz: Hey, never thought of that but kewl~!

You go over to a friends, go to his refrigerator, and crawl in throwing food and stuff over your shoulder and grunting.
Jigz: Have some manners please

You walk into an optometrist's office and shout: You will PAY for your lack of vision!
Jigz: Never

You have a Yoda figurine replacing the brand symbol on the hood of your car.
Jigz: Gila fanatik!

When accelerating your car to enter the freeway, you tell your passengers to strap in and prepare for light speed.
Jigz: Hahahha.. guilty as charged! Usually i will ask them first, if they are into fast cars or not.. hekss..

Your significant other dumps you because everytime she/he says, "I love you" you always respond, "I know."
Jigz: The first time he said, "I love you", I said "Thanks". After that i feel like slapping my own face for saying that. Silly me! Lucky he didn't dump me :-P

You quote Yoda to defend your political beliefs.
Jigz: Nope.

You have so many SW Trilogy GIF's, JPG's, MIDI's, AVI's, WAV's, MPG's, icons and text files that you're rapidly running out of disk space and have to buy a bigger hard drive just to hold them all.
Jigz: Campuslife is the craziest life. That's all i can say, thank you.

You have so many SW posters that you can't see your ceiling or floor, either.
Jigz: One or two are acceptable. I dont need a wallpaper

You have so many SW toys that you can't see your SW posters anyway.
Jigz: Not that much. That reminds me, I need to get a bigger cabinet for my collection. Preparing for the birth of the final baby next month *wink*

When leaving a restaurant, you can't resist signing Boba Fett or Darth Vader in the guestbook.
Jigz: hihiii.. good idea dude

You went through a state of depression when Chewie died.
Jigz: Nehhh.. he's too hairy for me.

You look at "big hairy carpets" with more respect than before.
Jigz: Oh, Chewie

You speak Rodian.
Jigz: Can't even speak Japanese properly

You punch out trekkies who say "Death star my ass, I'd like to see those losers take out DS9."
Jigz: That's mean!

With a blue-tinted plastic tube, a flashlight, two hours of a Saturday night, and 4 rolls of blue electrical tape, you finally complete your own working "Light-saber"
Jigz: I know i will fail miserably on such attempt. So, i'll pass

You listen for Obi-Wan while attempting to parallel park
Jigz: Err.. no.

Your father asks you how fast your car is, and you reply, "Fast enough for you, old man!"
Jigz: If I'm on for a slap!

You could have sworn you saw bantha tracks during your trip to the grand canyon.
Jigz: Hahaha.. nehhh

Every time somebody sneezes, you say, "May the force be with you."
Jigz: For other occasions... but not sneezing

The cinnamon buns in your hair start to grow mold.
Jigz: Hahahkkss.. cute.

You call your friend who is a midget Wicket.
Jigz: Nasty!

You refer to money as credits without trying to.
Jigz: Ermm...

You respond to any mention of the legality of something with "I will make it legal."
Jigz: Hahhaa.. this is funny. If the force is with me...

You start reliving the speeder bike chase on your motorbike.
Jigz: Ain't got no motorbike.

Someone tells you your car is old and beat-up, you reply "She'll do .5 past light speed..."
Jigz: Hekss.. good one!

You refer to getting off the freeway as coming out of hyperspace.
Jigz: I tend to imagine things when i'm bored.

You are POSITIVE you are force-sensitive and only lack the proper training.
Jigz: Oh yeah.. and support.

Someone says they will try to do something you automatically respond "Do or do not. There is no try."
Jigz: Hahhaa.. so true! That's my frequent phrase to my downlines.. I hate the word TRY.

By intense study you have actually figured out the location of every gun implacement on a star destroyer.
Jigz: I haven't reach to that level yet.

Your house robe is brown and extra large.
Jigz: I dont have a robe but i love to have the jedi robe. Where can i get that?

You type in the terms for a search engine as if entering coordinates, then shout "Punch it, Chewie!" as you click on search.
Jigz: Wow, that's quite an imagination.

You argue about whether Star Wars is space fantasy or space opera.
Jigz: I always have a hard time explaining people the concept of Star Wars.

You're out looking for a Wookie for your school's wrestling team.
Jigz: hehh.. no.

You nickname your car the Millennium Falcon.
Jigz: Not yet.. maybe my new car.

The last time a cute guy tried to hug you, your hands were dirty.
Jigz: Hahhaaa.. luckily, no.

When your mom asks you to clean your room, you say "Leave that to me."
Jigz: No, usually i said, "Sat sat" hihiii

Your friends share recipes for cooking Ewok.
Jigz: No.

You have a long braid in you hair like Obi-Wan in E1.
Jigz: I don't.

You call your boss/teacher "Master"
Jigz: Only when teasing him/her.

You went to the nearest recruiting center and asked to be assigned to the 121st TIE squadren
Jigz: Never think of such attemp. Crazy!

When asked if you want to be buried or creamated you say "I'll just vanish like the rest of the Jedi"
Jigz: So far, no one ever wish me dead. Fuh~!

You have a bad feeling about everything.
Jigz: Not everything. That's just the force of nature.

While partying with friends, you do your Darth Vader impression.
Jigz: heh, no.

You try to get your car up to .5 beyond lightspeed, in a parking lot.
Jigz: Never.

You call your girlfriend, "your Highness."
Jigz: For real?

You keep calling your boyfriend, "Luke," "Han," or "Lando" by mistake.
Jigz: No, unfortunately he doesn't look like one

You believe John Williams is the best composer ever (which, of course, he is!), and George Lucas is a god (which, too, is pretty much true!)
Jigz: I pretty much adore the geniuses.

While listening to the soundtrack without knowing the name of the song you are listening to, you know exactly what's happening while it's playing.
Jigz: Not really.. not all.

In foreign language class, you tell the teacher, "Hey! If I'm fluent in over six million forms of communication, then how come I'm getting such a bad grade in this class?"
Jigz: Mad cow!

When your friends confide in you and tell you their deepest, darkest secrets, you say, "You are far too trusting."
Jigz: Never.

When your dad says, "I am your father," you begin to scream uncontrollably and shout, "NOOOO! It's not true!" at the top of your lungs.
Jigz: That's mean!

You have ever thought the world would be a better place if it were like the Rebel Alliance/New Republic.
Jigz: Kinda.. but we all know that it's all fiction rite?

You now want to become an astronaut to see if there really is a Lando system.
Jigz: hahha.. not to that extend.. pleeasee

Obiwan Kenobi and Yoda come to you in your dreams and give you advice about tough situations you're dealing with.
Jigz: Unfortunately no :(

Yoda's little sayings have had a profound impact on your life, and you abide by them religiously.
Jigz: he's a wise man... and kewl. But i don't follow him that much either.

You've created lyrics to the songs in Star Wars.
Jigz: No. Bad at writing lyrics.

Instead of saving for college, you save up for Star Wars stuff you plan to buy.
Jigz: Guilty as charged. Anyone, please buy me the light saber plizzzzzz.... hukssss.. I'm dying to have one.

Anyone who doesn't like Star Wars you proclaim is an Imperial.
Jigz: Kewl.

When you are ticked off at somebody, you send bounty hunters all over the place to find them and then you encase him in carbonite for a new wall decoration.
Jigz: Nehh...

When your alarm clock goes off in the morning, your reply is, "Unexpected this is... and unfortunate!"
Jigz: Hehh no.

When riding your bike, you look behind you and accelerate wildly by pressing down on the petal with your right toe.
Jigz: Whoaaa~!

You've kept the "good" action figures stored separately from the "bad" ones.
Jigz: No, i always put them facing each other as if they are ready to fight :-D

As a child, whenever you had broken something, your response was always, "It must've had a self-destruct mechanism. I didn't hit it that hard."
Jigz: Hihiihi funny but no.

You've refused to enter a cave/cavern/tunnel without a handgun and a large stick.
Jigz: Large stick.

When you waited for a friend to catch up with you, you told him to hurry up or he'd be a permanent resident.
Jigz: Hahhahaha.. that's a funnny one!

You've ever found yourself in a chat room, training Jedi.
Jigz: I wish i have an apprentice.

You've ever told your younger brother at the dinner table, "Use the fork, Luke."
Jigz: I don't have a younger bro.

You've ever roped off your Star Wars Action Figure collection, claiming it to be an independent nation.
Jigz: Never.

Hmm.. after all said and done, I really don't think that I'm addicted to Star Wars. I can't recall every single scenes from all 5 movies and I can't remember every single character.
I'm just a fan.. like any other people..
and it's always get me excited..
blood rushing in... every single time...

Watch out for Star Wars III: Revenge of the Sith on cinema May 19, 2005.
35 days Countdown!

This girl...

She's so skinny
She has bad complexion
She's so hairy
She doesn't have long sexy legs
She can't close her eyes when she sleeps
She eats like a horse
She sips her drink like a tortoise
She slouches
She will grow old as a hunchback

This girl...
She's loud
She's practically deaf
She talks too much
She's proud
She's clumsy
She's forgetful
She's blur
She's so grago

This girl...
She works too hard
She doesn't watch football
She hates hockey and PS2
She doesn't like pet
She's a bad driver
She listens to loud and noisy music
She doesn't like to stay home
She doesn't have time for you

This girl...
She's stubborn
She hates silence
She doesn't pay attention to what you're saying
She hates it when you don't pay attention to her
She hates when you nag, even when you don't
She doesn't take advice
She's sickening
She's a pain in the ass
She's annoying
She makes you hate her

This girl...
She's everything you don't like in a girl
So why do you still want her?

Dreams and fear

I walk towards my dreams
but look behind on every step with fear
on bleeding feet of sadness
through the alley of darkness
these fear is squeezing my mind
Impulsive as they come
just screaming to pull out of the plastic life

torching path of life
with a ray of hope
penetrating thru holes in my heart
lifting haze of fear from my eyes
whispering joy to my trembing ears
now it has gotten under my skin
but i dont know if i should give up or give in
to make dreams become reality
or to let fear sink in

Wishlist updated v2

My wishlist:

1. A PDA
2. New purse
3. New handphone
4. A digital SLR-like camera with >10x optical zoom
5. New sunglasses (preferably identical to my beloved sunglasses that my mom accidently flushed down the toilet :( )
6. A holiday with my new camera and sunglasses!! yeeehhhaa!!

Trackback wishlist updated v1

Skip 4 & 5 - I'm jumping to no 6.
I'm glad to announce that now i have almost enough fund to go to China & Egypt next year. Alhmadulillah..
My next target is to increase the fund to support my mom. She always wanted to go to China.. Hopefully i can bring my sister along ;-)
No 4 and 5 became minor priorities now..
I have another special gift for my parents.. my target : 2006

Nicest thing...

I'm adding a year to my life calendar today. It feel so good, i feel like it's the best special day ever.. and the day is not over yet.
Things are alot more sweeter when you dont have any expectation. It will just fly in your window. It's not about gifts and fancy restaurants and all those bling bling..
It's the thoughts and sincere effort that comes a long way..

Heat off

Sometimes it's just frustrating when I'm disappointed or pissed off with sum ppl, I just do not know how to express my frustration directly to em. And when i try to keep it within, it'll just blow off sumwhere else and totally make a mess out of my life. Moment of catastrophy. Hate the person to bit.. well only for that moment.

Things would be much easier if i can just close my eyes and tell em off and slam the door. But no.. i just choose to mess with my head until it get cleared off on its own.
And the worse part is.. the person doesnt even have a clue!

Self-actualization

Why people need to change?
Why do we need to grow up?
Why growing up packaged with tons of responsibilities?
And why are there expectations that we need to live up to while climbing the stairs of life?
If we are not ready to face the expectation now, will we be ready tomorrow or even in a zillion years?

These few days i've been doing serious thinking of my life. I think i want to shift course.
At this point of time, I am still uncertain if i'm doing the right thing.. Probably the right thing for some people but my job doesn't excite me. My life doesn't excite me that much as well.

Yeah... You have a conflict when you know exactly what you want in life and you are not going toward the direction.
U know you have a conflict when u know for a fact that u need to do some dramatic changes in your life but u are too afraid of the consequences.
My hunch is that there are a lot of people like me--people who always felt called toward a certain type of career or goal in life, but who wound up grabbing the first safety rope that appeared. You can definitely climb that rope pretty high, and even make lots of money and have an impressive-sounding job title. But it's no key to satisfaction because you can never escape what you know inside: that there's something else you'd rather be doing, if only you had the courage and the opportunity to do it.

They say if you don't love what you do and look forward to doing it, that means you are condemning yourself to a life of discontent.
Hey dude, it's not as easy as it seem. Just because I don't like what I do now, does not mean I can quit the whole thing right now and shift away. This literally means i voluntarily send myself to a death sentence! I still have mouths to feed. Yup, my own and those little kitties!

Heya~

Hullo frens,

Been awhile since i last update this blog. Been busy with my sister's wedding (last weekend). Not to mention the workload that i left behind. The price to pay for a week break!

I've got a meeting to catch.. chow~!

The thing with the Malaysian Corporate Company

I can't say that i hate my job coz it feeds me everyday. But I hate dealing with people of the company i'm working with more than dealing with anybody else in the world. I can't seem to understand and tolerate with ppl who are passive (read: SLOW!). They are just testing my patience! I don't brisk walk so please... If you can't run, could you at least jog? Sigh, no wonder alot of Malaysians have fat asses!

I know some people in my team might not like me... They would probably be talking ill of me rite now. When i work, i don't like hanky panky. Just get down to business. And that's why some people take me for granted. That's when i would gladly fire them back, even in a meeting and even if she/they are of higher rank than me. Older is not wiser. It's the speed of the IQ & EQ get u where u wanna go. Sometimes i wonder how some ppl get promoted when he/she is just a plain stupid! Anyone wants to protest against promotion based on seniority system? I dont even wanna start with Malays & the Malay dilemma. Sucks, man!

Yikes!

Demmm i posted too much of junk! I ain't got no time and no idea to think of anything good! I need some inspiration *sigh*

Work pressure + lack of sleep + too much caffein = brain numbness

I hate this blog! and i need more coffee...

Judging me by my birthmonth

MARCH:
Attractive personality ( pheewittt!!)
Sexy (...lies in the eyes of the beholder)
Affectionate (*big huggg*)
Shy and reserved (my Social PersonalityDisorder)
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic (Amin)
Loves peace and serenity (so that i could sleep easy)
Aggressive when provoked (sometimes even when not)
Sensitive to others :)
Loves to help others (...aren't we all?)
Not easily angered (I am water)
Trustworthy (I'd like to believe so)
Defends others (sumtimes gets me into unnecessary trouble)
Appreciative and returns kindness (so that we can live in a perfect harmony)
Observant and assesses others (it is pretty interesting to learn social psychology)
Varied interests (yups, i get excited over stuff easily)
Loves to dream and fantasize (ehehh...)
Loves traveling (of course!)
Loves attention (can't help it. i'm the youngest in the family)
Strong belief system (erkk...)
Hasty in trusting others (just being careful)
Loves home decors (alot!! can't wait to have my own hse)
Musically talented (hahaha.. now that's a good joke)
Depends on friends (depends on the kind of fren that is)
Loves special things (hikss.. u & i are special *wink*)
Moody and easily hurt (guilty as charged! but i rarely express my feelings)
A giving lover (...is better than receiving)
Very loyal (certainly trying my best :)
Deep Thinker (hmmh...)
Feels deeply (i hope i dont get drown!)
A romantic (eh u?)
Loves to be loved (who doesn't?)
Thrifty (I wanna be thirty, trendy & thrifty ;-)
Loves down time alone (to be specific - location: Sushi King)

I googled me!

I googled me (again!), and I found this ;-)

Description of Your First Name of: Shuhaizee

The following brief summary describes only a few qualities of your first name. There are many additional factors (legal name, nicknames, family surname, combined names, previous names, business signature, and, very importantly, your inner potential or birthpath as determined from your date of birth) that create and mold your entire personality - and your entire life.

Although the name Shuhaizee creates an active mind and a restless urge to explore new ideas, we emphasize that it frustrates you through a scattered and emotional nature. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the solar plexus, liver and bloodstream.

Your first name of Shuhaizee has given you a quick, active mind, which has caused you to delve into many different ideas and theories. You have a desire for association with people and, since you have no difficulty in being spontaneous and expressive with others, you have considerable ability for discussion and debate. You enjoy unexpected opportunities for meeting people, or doing things on the spur of the moment. Where you have difficulty is in organizing and systematizing the handling of your responsibilities. Though you can work on any undertaking intently as long as it absorbs your interest, you cannot persevere when confronted by obstacles or by tedious monotony. Thus your success in your undertakings is limited.

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If i could rate to this Kabalarian Philosaphy, i would give it a 4.5 over 5. All have been perfectly define as me. Yes, this is exactly the Shuhaizee that i am. The 0.5 that i hold back is the last line, which i presume is the summary of my name - that fails me. Sorry, I beg to differ.

"I had thought her a mere social climber. But i see her now a mountaineer"

I'm a mountaineer.. yeay!!

When i achieve my sales target or some recognition, i usually would want to celebrate. Whether a shopping treat at the mall , or just a dine out at any "Lepaque Place" with friends..
But today, after all the sweat and tear.. all i wanted to do now is to go home, wrapped myself around with my comforter and watch a good movie. Ahhhhhh~!!

For PTPTN loaners, you could check your status here. For a kepochi like me, you could also check on ur frens hehhee. Dudes, good luck in paying all the fees...
For those who refuse to pay.. Ish ishh ishh.. shame on you! Aizuddin said it aloud in his blog.

Go play kites

Lo and behold, some people DO take things seriously.

I'm a Piscean - a world renowned daydreamer. I have high imaginations and i think i have a creative vs crazy mind. I am Alice in Wonderland. But I can't afford to tell people of my dreams & imagination coz ppl may think i'm insane. Either that, or ppl take me seriously with my stories. Dont take everything i posted here to heart and too hard. Not everything is about me.. i get inspiration from various sources. So please... broaden your horizon!

Real life is such a bore. I created my own fantasies and i play alot with"what-if"s... and like a friend said, my world is in my mind. It doesn't hurt me, so why does it hurt you?

Creepy...

the black that doesn't fade when u awake
until you scream and shake
only to realize it wasn't a dream
but an aspiration of you insanity

and that you scream was silent
and your shake a feeble attemp
for when your eyes opened
your muscles are relaxed and resting

and your family is still asleep
but you were already awake

then you realize that if we're all the same
then right now they feel the same thing
and that if not,
you just have become
a victim of abnormality

- Jigz-

"No... I said I like you SO MUCH"

Have you ever watch Meet Joe Black? Do you remember the opening scene when Susan Parrish (Claire Forlani ohh she's so cute!) and a charming stranger (the handsome Brad Pitt) meet at a coffee house one fine morning, on their way to work. They had a short, lubricious conversation before they head back to their ways, and when he realized that he couldn't get enuff of her with just one short conversation, it was too late.

How often do you meet a stranger, exchange a few lines and realize that his words fit you perfectly and you can't forget him for the rest of your life? How many people actually even get to experience this? The conversation was so perfect, it delivered an emotional wallop that you've never had before. How ironic, that was the only conversation you had with him, and you never saw him again after that. And it was that few magical lines that blossoms in your heart. Even after years gone by, you still think of him and the conversation that you both had but you dont even know him. He...a stranger. A lover you know but you've never met.

You know, lightning could strike.

He said...

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? I say fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love -- well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived"

Non-sense of telling me

Have u ever felt like you want to say something but it just doesn't come out right? Or you have this thought rushing to your head while you were driving or in the toilet and when you finally get your fingers on the keyboard, u cant think of how to begin and THAT just destroys the whole idea altogether. It just spoils your mood!
*sigh*
I hate when it happens to me!!

Fill me in..

I'm going to make my blog go mainstream haha..
Let's play a game and fill me in (..the comment space) *wink*

[01.] Who are you?
[02.] Are we friends?
[03.] When and how did we meet?
[04.] How have I affected you?
[05.] What do you think of me?
[06.] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[07.] How long do you think we will be friends?
[08.] Do you like me?
[09.] Would you date me?
[10.] Would you kiss me?
[11.] Would you hug me?
[12.] Physically, what stands out?
[13.] Emotionally, what stands out?
[14.] Do you wish I was cooler? (eheh!)
[15.] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[16.] Am I loveable?
[17.] How long have you known me?
[18.] Describe me in one word.
[19.] What was your first impression?
[20.] Do you still think that way about me now?
[21.] What do you think my weakness is?
[22.] Do you think I'll get married?
[23.] What makes me happy?
[24.] What makes me sad?
[25.] What reminds you of me?
[26.] If you could give me anything what would it be?
[27.] How well do you know me?
[28.] When's the last time you saw me?
[29.] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[30.] Are you going to put this in your journal and see what I say about you?

The Paradox of Our Lives

We have taller buildings but shorter tempers
Wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints
We spend more, but have less
We buy more but enjoy less
We have bigger houses and smaller families
More conveniences, but less time
We have more degrees, but less sense
More knowledge, but less judgment
More experts, yet more problems
More medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values
We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life
we've added years to life not life to years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbour
We conquered outer space but not inner space.
We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but Learn less.
We plan more, but accomplish less.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait.
These are the days of two incomes but more divorce
Fancier houses but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw-away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer to quiet, to kill.
These are the days of more households in the workforce, but the take-home pay is never seems to be enough to feed the family..

There is a saying which I am sure you will recognize: "Do what you love, live as if this is all there is. Life's journey is the destination…so dance like no-one's watching, work like you don't need the money, and love like you've never been hurt before…"

Change one thing, change everyting

"a flip of a butterfly wing can turns into torpedo in the other parts of the world"

I watched Butterfly Effect last nite.

Fieya watched it the other nite and she said the movie was so psycho she couldn't sleep the whole nite.. hmm, talking about butterfly effect.

Yes, i couldn't sleep last nite neither.Not because the film is so psycho it scares me. No. Because it made me think, what if we really could change the past, or even the future? Will it be a better world? Or at least a better life for me?

The film is about a young man, Evan Treborns (Ashton Kutcher) blacks out at every traumatic incident in his childhood life. So, when he was 7, his doctor advised him to write a journal as memory exercises. When he's at college, he finds a technique that allows him to travel back into the past, to occupy his childhood body and change history - by reading his journal. However, he soon finds that every change he makes has unexpected consequence that eventually change everything that follows. As he tries to rewrite the history time and time again, he starts to lose grip of reality. His desperation grows deeper each time he changes the past. And he finally finds an easy way out.

The ending of the movie is quite disappointing tho. No, sorry.. the ending was unexpected. None of those oh-it-was-just-a-dream ending but the scripwriter has came out with a better gimmick than that! It's the choice that the character Evan made at the end of the movie disappoints me. I respect Evan with the fact that everytime he realises that things didn't turn out right for his mother or one of his friends, he travels back to his childhood and tries to change the history. He wants to make everything perfect for every one that matters in his life. But, no my dear, that does not happen in the real world. As much as he did not want anything bad happen to his love ones and made such sacrifices but not everything comes in one box. Even in one person, there's at least a flaw. She is pretty but she's such a bitch! His guy is handsome and romantic but too possessive. Urgh! He's quite cute and smart, but he's just too thin. She's a hot mama but such a kluts. No one's perfect, ever heard of that?

And after watching the movie, i kept thinking of consequences that we have encountered in our life. What if i go to that uni, not this? Will i still be having the kind of friends that i have now? Am i going to know him somehow? Only if i take the right turn instead of left, that accident could be avoided. Only if my sister locked the steering of her car, it wouldn't get stolen. What if I submitted the resign letter that day, would i be better off somewhere? There's a lot of "what if"s and "only if"s in life that we somehow wish to turn back to the time of events.
I am glad that alot of things happen to me, there are some i dont even want to remember some i dont want to forget. There are times that i wish some things didn't happen and there are times that i wish some things will never end. But i do not wish i could turn back the time. Coz time passes by is all about possibilities and making choices of every second of our life.

And i curse Evan for being a quitter, even before he made it to the real world. He missed all the opportunities he could have simply by being a such a coward, and i pity him for that. He should have just live the life. For better or worse.

"My mom always said, life is like a box of chocolate, u never know what you gonna get"

Forrest Gump

Evan probably have never heard of this phrase, that's why he never dare to take the possibilities of life. hehe

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Kewl~~!

Credits to dee for being my Blog Helper!

My blog is handicap!

I just got to know that my blog does not have the necessary features that by right every blog should have.

My blog does not have a font style toolbar!! I got to know it when i ask my fren on how to change font style for certain words in a post. She told me that it can be done with one click at the mini toolbar when i create a post. I was like, "what?? There's no toolbar at all in my blogger page". She print screen her blogger page and sent it to me. And there you go, now i know why i'm such a loser in blogging.

It is worth the $3m to take the risk?

A friend told me yesterday that he got an email from a US citizen who he never met before. In the email, the person requested for my fren's account number as he plans to transfer some money to the account. My friend, being curious and suspicious, he did not comply to the request but leave his mobile number instead. To his surprise, not long after, he got a call from the sender of the email.

Through the phone call, the guy explained to my fren of his intention. According to this guy, he's working with a bank in US which my fren mentioned to me but i've forgotten of the name. His work requires him to monitor bank accounts and he came across this particular account that has been remain inactive for the past 10 years so he started investigation on the account holder. He has found out that the account holder died 10 years ago and left a fortune in his account. It's USD$30millions worth of fortune! hmmm.. what a "miss-fortune-ate" dead guy!

This guy claims that he is also an Asian and he believes that Asean is the safest region to transfer the money. This is why he selected my friend and proposed the collaboration arrangement. If my friend agrees, the guy will seek advise from his attorney and prepare for the agreement document prior to him coming down to Malaysia next month. He will meet my fren to table out the modus operandi and arrangement of the plan. With the agreement, the guy will transfer the whole sum of money to my fren's account. My friend then needs to transfer the money to this guy and take 10% of the fortune for himself. That's USD$3millions, my friend! Wow~ I can live my whole life with that!

So my friend came to me for a piece of advice.
I told him:

1. I have heard a story like this before, but never to the extend that the person would personally call and proposed to meet. So i am not sure of the reliability/seriousness of the guy.
2. If he really has the ball to do it, first he needs to check our Bank Negara Malaysia policy on the transfer of foreign currency to local account, esp individual account.
3. He also needs to check the max amount of money allowed to be transfered, and if he needs to declare the money.
4. And if he really really wants to do it, it is better to break the money into smaller portions and spread it into different accounts so it would not look obvious.
5. Is the guy trustworthy? If u really wants to meet him, meet him at a crowded place. A cafe at KLCC looks like a good option.
6. I dont think anyone would willingly to give 10% of his fortune, if it's not risky at all. 10% is a very high share as an agent (that's what i call him of this modus operandi).
7. The risk remains with him until infinity. This is because the bank system will always see his account of the transfer activity. Not the master mind's. The risk is always his. If the US authority finds out. He'll be the one getting it.
8. Yes, USD$3m is an unresistable tempation but this is kerja gila and it is definitely a NO-NO.

But my fren instist on giving it a shot. So he plans to meet the guy next month and see how it goes from there.
And i said, "Good Luck!"

And just for a though.. when i gave him those ideas, i already feel like i have a mind of a criminal. Kewl!

Bullshitting around!

I had a little conversation with a friend. About love and life. About to disclose mine. Yeah, whatever!
Credit to a friend who wants to remain anonymous. hehe..

jigz_og: do we have cherry blossom in m'sia?
friend: apa tu
friend: i baru google
friend: mak ai
friend: ade ke kat msia
friend: cam takdeee je
jigz_og: hihi
jigz_og: what is that white little flowers that we have
jigz_og: imagine an open field?
friend: mmg la lawa jigz
friend: pegi la jepun ke apa
jigz_og: hmmm
jigz_og: i saw it in hindustan movies
jigz_og: wonder if we have them here
jigz_og: :-?
friend: highly doubt it la jigz

friend: u banyak change ke skang jigz?
jigz_og: cant say much
jigz_og: :-S
jigz_og: kdg2 terasa gaks la
friend: terasa apa
jigz_og: tapi tah.. biase je kot
friend: ei
friend: sometimes kan
friend: i dont get la u ngan **** nye status... cam slalu la wondering... apa benda sebenarnye ni
friend: hehe
jigz_og: status ape?
friend: cam
friend: couple kan diorang ni
friend: tapi apsal tak nampak cam couple je
friend: cam tu la
jigz_og: :))
friend: ye la.. makes me wonder like... whats the point?
friend: hehe
jigz_og: cant' agree more.
jigz_og: i do wonder myself
jigz_og: hmmm :-?
friend: ei
friend: ur the insider la
friend: insider mana ade wonder sume
friend: sbb tahu sume info
friend: hehe
jigz_og: susah nk ckp la
jigz_og: i only have 1/2 the info
jigz_og: make sense?
friend: hmm
friend: betul betul
jigz_og: :-B
friend: kekadang ade org tanye la
friend: i was like
friend: ntah le
friend: aku pon tak paham
friend: ko tanye sendiri lah
jigz_og: yeah?
jigz_og: sape la agaknye tu yg tanye ye
friend: cant remember la
friend: not like baru tanye ke apa
friend: just dah a few times le
friend: sume i jawab tatau
friend: u tak de intention nak sort it out ke?
jigz_og: ade gaks
jigz_og: tapi takde solution
friend: alaa
friend: dulu i pernah tanye
friend: tapi die cam malas nak layan
friend: so i malas nak tanye dah
friend: so iwas like...oo .. okk
friend: hehe
jigz_og: hmm probably
jigz_og: tak larat nak pk
jigz_og: so.. i really dont have answer to ur wondering
friend: wastedla jigz
jigz_og: ape yg wasted?
friend: ye laa
friend: tapi u tak rasa wasted ke camni?
jigz_og: rase gak
friend: cam ur not really living ur life
jigz_og: so rather than tackling the problem, i let it be
friend: and clearly its not working kan jigz
friend: nothing's happening
jigz_og: btw
jigz_og: what really is definition of couple?
jigz_og: ade stereotype ke?
friend: adoi
friend: do u really need to be intellectual ke jigz
friend: the point is do u feel like ur having a bf or not
friend: hehe
jigz_og: hmm
friend: takde la
friend: hish
friend: its ur life jigz
friend: u prefer
friend: ur emotion stable cam tu je ke
friend: or dia vary la
friend: cam kalau happy .. happy gile
friend: sedih.. sedih gile
friend: if like..u r avoiding all the time.. stable la.. tapi no high and low la
friend: sameeeee je
jigz_og: hmmm yeps
jigz_og: i rase as long as things are ok
jigz_og: i dont want to provoke anything
friend: play it safe eh jigz
friend: like i told u
friend: its ur life
friend: u know it better than anyone else
friend: so its ur call la
friend: hehe
jigz_og: usually kan
jigz_og: what we thought best for us might not be so
jigz_og: coz we never look at it outside our circle
jigz_og: we close our ears to what ppl say
jigz_og: coz we surrender to what we have or at least believe it's the best thing we have
jigz_og: but not so!
friend: not we jigz
friend: u
friend: u can only speak for ur self
friend: hehe
jigz_og: demmm
jigz_og: right to my face! ouchh!!
friend: hmmm
friend: marriage mmg jauh la dari u nye planning?
jigz_og: ermm
jigz_og: kalau ikut perasaan i
jigz_og: takde la jauh pon
jigz_og: but bcoz i dont have calon/the available calon is not so prepared for one
jigz_og: so like do i have a choice?
friend: hehehe
friend: u always have a choice
jigz_og: huksss
friend: betol la kan
friend: what ever situation i'm in right now
jigz_og: not as easy as that
friend: its because of the choices i made
friend: obviously la not easy.. but its true.. u always have a choice
friend: but by choosing the easy way out like i always did.. nothing's gonna change la
friend: same ol same ol
friend: hehe
jigz_og: hmm point to ponder
jigz_og: tetibe rase sedih
jigz_og: :(
friend: hmmm
friend: just being intellectual and pondering ,,, analyzing.. still wont get u nowhere
friend: that i know for sure cause i do that all the time
friend: analyze memanjang
jigz_og: but no action taken
jigz_og: but action without proper solution pon tak guna gak
friend: the point is
friend: u wont know whats proper or not until u get the results
friend: i cant sit down and think about it la
friend: but what usually happen is .. thats all that i did
jigz_og: i cant think anymore
jigz_og: that's why i stop thinking about it
jigz_og: even if i do anything about it
jigz_og: it definitely dont get me anywhere
jigz_og: bottom line is
friend: u sure about that?
jigz_og: i dont even know the $%^# i'm talking about
jigz_og: :((
jigz_og: tak tauuuu
friend: fuck jigz
friend: just spell it properly
friend: hehe
friend: i wont mind
friend: hehehe
jigz_og: hahha
jigz_og: i do mind :P
friend: hehehe
friend: so after pondering it for like 1 hour
friend: still nothing's gonna change la kan
friend: hehe
jigz_og: as usual
friend: the only thing u get is something to write kat ur blog
jigz_og: ehhe
jigz_og: :))
jigz_og: demm
jigz_og: u screw it!
friend: hehe
jigz_og: i want to post the whole conversation to my blog
friend: hehehe
friend: thats gonna be fun
friend: hehe

Let's get carried away

"Let's get carried away" I quote this from my chat fren's status msg on YM.

The phrase caught me attention.
I was f**kin busy with work lately, i dont even have time to breath easy. I couldn't even remember when was the last time i went down for a good lunch.

Yeah, let's get carried away i said.
So here i am. In the midst of being miss bz bee, i just feel that it's worth to get carried away for a while *wink*

I imagine myself at a mountain lake... with him. It's a crisp cool, calm day. Peaceful, so relaxing. The surrounding is so splendid. It's summer. It's always summer in this country. The beautiful scenery of mountain beds behind us with its nearly perfect conical profile and wide-flowing skirts. It is beautified more with rows of fresh green pine trees at the feet of the mountains. Cherry blossoms and white flower flakes surrounding the lake. Yeah, there's no cherry blossom in Malaysia but i can have whatever i want in my imagination.

As quoted in Sojourn Online, Japanese view of life as reflected in the cherry blossoms. The blossoms are exquisitely beautiful, but fragile and short lived. Within days they’ve fluttered down to the ground, trampled and spoiled in the dirt.
The Japanese see life the same way. Youth, beauty, and happiness are gone before we know it. Like cherry blossoms, the petals of our life fade and disappear just as we recognize our blossom’s beauty. Life is short. Not a happy thought, but because life is short we should enjoy it while we can. The touch of melancholy usually gets washed away in the “life is short, enjoy it while you can” portion of the philosophy.

We paddled away in a wooden boat. Floated and lost in the middle of the lake. The weather is just refreshing... Ahh, so perfect! The wind smoothly kisses my cheek and play with my long straight hair. He placed his fishing rod nicely at the center of the boat and tighten the end with a wire attached to the flat-wooden seat of the boat. Once in a while the rod moves a little, signalling that his bait probably gets its victim. He, somehow doesn't seem to be attracted to those fishes in the lake. We just don't care, really.. Just let the boat float. We talk, sometimes laugh, at times it only silence fills the air, admiring the magnificient scenery and praising God for being able to loved and be loved. And for such a wonderful moment.. even for a moment.

For a while, we forget about the world, we leave all the worries behind. Life is too good to be wasted, like the Japanese said. Let's get carried away, as long as the boat dont sink.

When the mind and heart collides

It's noisy around here. The sound of my own racing thoughts add to the psychic decibel level. With too many sounds running around in my head, not too mention those came in thru the ears make it difficult for me to listen carefully and tentatively to each of the thoughts that requires (READ: yearn for) my attention.. Argghh.. Clear communication (inside the head) is critical when i'm in this situation.

The most difficult part is to separate the realistic ones and not. For some thoughts is derived from the heart, and some are from the mind.

God gives us, human, the greatest gift his ceation could ever wish for. BRAIN.. AKAL. The ability to THINK. It is the most precious treasure that is trusted to us that is not given to any other creature. Only human. Unlike other organs (even heart), brain is not exchangable, nor transferable. If the brain is dead, it's dead. When a man is in brain-dead condition, he's medically correct to be pronounced - dead (like the late Yasser Araffat).

The fact is that, we all are, at larger part, usually governs by the heart. Yes, of course people could debate me over this. We think with our brain, but the biggest influence in making decision is often the emotion.This is a common syndrome not many realize. Me myself, find it difficult to defeat emotion.

I dont mean by saying so, we should neglect the emotion at any expense, and act only what the mind suggests. Just if the heart and mind collides, think it over... and again...